NEED to run today. Obviously didn't happen yesterday between cutting holes in walls in the morning, then going to the airport to get K, then doing more housework after. Bringing my clothes to run after class. I have to wait over 3hrs after mine end for K to be done with his, so I'll go to CF *and* hopefully run around campus. 

First day of school. Just blabber, not worth your time...

Sigh. EEEEeeeekk. Definitely feel more 'relaxed' in life, as of now, my only job is to kick ass in these last pre-req classes. However, they're 3 big ones, all with labs and extensive out-of-class work. One has 3hrs/wk of required independent lab, on top of the regular class & lab time. 

I fluctuate between feeling grateful/lucky that I have the opportunity to go to school full time with minimal financial impact (however, I worked my ass off for it) at this point and feeling like I'm so behind in life. I'm going for degree #2 at 31 and I'll probably be closer to 40 by the time I'm done with my D.N.P (if I go that route). Which, fine, no big deal. BUT then, retirement is pushed even farther back. Hard to swallow when most of my aunts & uncles are retiring in their mid-late 50's. My mom is retiring at 61 or 62, only delaying it to give herself a little more cushion (the divorce 10 years ago really impacted her finances). Anyway, feeling very...behind. BUT, to stay positive, I can live rent free and school & expenses are paid for. Thank you Uncle Sam for that bonus.  

4 days of running last week. Not as much, or as many miles as I would like, but it's a start for 'real' training for me. I think it's a HUGE step. 

I'm pretty nervous about this 50k in 3 weeks. The first one was completely blind, up & down a mtn. No expectations. Now, I know what it's like. What will hurt. What my weaknesses are (too lackadaisical). Since I won't be running alone, I think I will push myself more and, thus, it's going to hurt and suck a whole lot more.

11am: Just finished with final registration stuff, GI Bill paperwork, etc. 4 freaking hours of online paperwork. UGH. Now, do I beat feet to CF and campus for final registration stuff (ID card, parking pass, etc) or just suffer through a mid-day run here? SIGH. 

So tired. Staying up past 11 each night to watch the Olympics, very unlike me. I'm a 'asleep by 9' kinda girl as I usually cannot sleep late. Still wide awake by 6:30 no matter what. 

Had a very vivid dream that I was starting/opening a gallery in Marfa, TX last night. SO.STRANGE. This is *not* my thing. I enjoy looking at art, but that's about it. I had an empty old building on the main drag, but the art wasn't delivered yet, the drinks weren't there and the caterer was MIA. And people were showing up. It wasn't fancy, very Texas casual, but it was just a strange, strange dream. 

Had fish couvillion last night, of course, with the fish my uncle caught the day before. 

Appt. with my advisor at school today. Unfortunately it's in the middle of the day so I don't think the CF gym has a class around that time. Boo.

Thursday is 'wild game family dinner' at my uncles (2 houses from my mom's). It's not what you think of a normal family dinner where people are served or serve themselves and sit around. This is cooked outside in the 'work garage' and we eat on patio chairs and such. A dying part of the culture, don't know who is going to take it over when he's not around anymore.