I feel so lousy

I was supposed to do my second tri today, Sun. I had been slacking some on my training but as it was a sprint I felt I would be ok. My typical bike ride is 60+ miles and though I’m a lousy runner I would be ok for 3.1 miles.

I had been having some trouble with my foot the two days prior but I was hoping I had been able to work the issues out. I got up race morning at 4:00 am and started getting everything ready. As I walked around my foot started to hurt more and more. I told my hubby I wasn’t sure I was going to be able to do the race. I put my running shoes on and went out to try running to see how I felt. I didn’t get very far before the foot was a real problem. I went back in the house and thought may be a pair of shoes with less arch support might work better (the pain in my foot is in the arch). The shoes with less arch support definitely helped, the foot still hurt but 3 mi. might be doable. When my foot had first started bothering me I had gone for a bike ride and the foot had given me no trouble so I figured it would be the same for the race. I thought I better check how I felt on the bike before I left for the race. I put my bike shoes on and just walking in them was really painful but I figured I wouldn’t be walking in them much so I might be ok. I went out and rode and the feet were fine on the flat road when I wasn’t really pushing on the pedals. The race however went over two causeway bridges that were pretty steep so I figured I would simulate climbing. I shifted into my highest gear and stood up. I took two pedal strokes with my foot before I had to sit back down it hurt so bad. There was no way I was going to be able to do both the bike and the run with my foot behaving this way. I went back in, sat down on the couch, and started to cry. I felt so bad, like I had let myself down by not going to the race and at least giving it a try.

I had been feeling nervous about the race for the last few days and I had thought you know if I sprained my ankle I could get out of the race legitimately but I didn’t really mean it. I have another race in 1 month and now it’s going to be harder to get over the nerves and race, provided I can get my foot back into shape for the run.