troublesome email poll

Okay. Here's the deal. (I can't believe I'm posting this on BT, but I need some objective opinions.) About 8 years ago, I broke it off--fairly poorly--with a (really lovely) woman so I could commit myself to my current (totally fantastic) partner. There were extenuating circumstances. I was jerk-ish. Not really bad but not good, either. Anyway, the woman and I tried to be friendly for a little while, but she ended up cutting that off.

Fast forward to now. I have written to her twice, I think, since we stopped being friends. She's been pleasant but firm in her no communication stance. Now, however, my partner and I moved to Chicago last year (from Boston), and I know that this woman is in graduate school downstate, making her so close. I very much want to see her and apologize for how I acted, maybe even explain a little bit, and I'm quite sure she'll migrate elsewhere when she gets her degree.

So I've written this:

"I suppose it is so hard for me to write this email because I shouldn't be writing it at all. Does it make you feel better that I have already fought the urge for nine months? When Anna and I moved to Chicago last year, I checked on you and confirmed that you were still at U of I. But now ... I had an opportunity to be down there this weekend for a road race, and I thought of you mightily. But I passed it up. Even though I wanted to take that drive and beg you for an hour at the closest coffee shop.
"You have consistently asked me not to write, and most of the time I obey you. Sometimes, though, I just can't stand that I ran you off the way I did when the only things you deserved from me were love and respect. I am engulfed by the urge to give you, in person, a real apology, a truthful one. I have been left by so many people for such vague or deceitful reasons that I have a hard time accepting that I, too, belong in those ranks. Besides, I still miss your face and your laugh and those most important intangibles that refuse to let me forget.
"I write expecting rejection and chastising. But you are so close for probably so short a time that I cannot help but ask: coffee?"

The question is: should I send it?