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Blessed, but I have to keep reminding myself every so often.

One of the unforseen consequences of my heart surgery has been occasional bouts of depression.  Sometimes I deal with it well, other times not.

Mark

We lost my father-in-law 3 years ago.  He and my mother-in-law moved here from California when we started having children just so they could be close to their grandchildren.....and he was.  He saw our kids every day and taught them all how to ride a bike, throw a ball, blah,blah,blah.  At 83 he was vibrant and strong enough to build his own retaining wall in his yard.  He helped me remodel our entire house. (OK, I helped him)  I loved him as much as my own father.  He needed heart surgery, and although everyone understood the risks, it never occured to us that when we saw him off to the operating room we would never see him alive again.

I can tell you, under no uncertain terms, our family was devastated.  My son ran screaming down the hall, yelling that we were all liars.  My daughters were barely able to function.  I couldn't hold it together when one of them would look at me and say, "what will we do without Pawpaw?" My wife was lost.  There were times when I couldn't possibly imagine we would ever be whole again.

We are, and you will also lose that overwhelming feeling of loss and sadness that you feel now. I don't know how, but grief gets replaced with wonderful and vivid memories that make you smile. Our children speak of their Grandpa in, well, Grand terms.  It's usually something like, "hey, remember when Pawpaw..... " and then they'll laugh and giggle. 

It's a hard thing.  I wouldn't worry about bringing people around you down.....that doesn't REALLY happen in a case like this.  What has always helped me to deal with losing him is to put it into the terms of my own life.   If I can have 83 years of relative health, and leave this earth well loved and well missed, then I would have no regrets.  I can't imagine he did.

It doesn't sound like your dad would either.

I'm sorry for your loss.  Just thought I'd share my esxperience. 

I voted "struggling" yesterday, and now this evening at softball, I was running to first base and felt a pop in my left leg and went down. About 3 years ago I felt a pop in my right leg and went down... that was a complete Achilles rupture, and for added fun, I developed a blood clot in my calf during the recovery. I don't need this on top of everything else, I really don't.

Will be seeing a specialist this week... I really hope this isn't another complete rupture, but I'm afraid it is. So add "Worried" to my vote.

The past couple of months have been fairly stressful with work, moving, immigration, the almost wedding (didn't happen), etc.  I really didn't know which of the options would apply to me as I really don't have anything to complain about, but I'm not ok.  Yet. 

Hopefully in a month and a half things will get a lot better. 

  that is a scary thought honey.  I hope you are ok.

I voted "beyond blessed".

Not everything is always unicorns and lollipops, and when it's not, I consider myself exceptionally fortunate to have a support system of friends that is top notch.

I just got married to my best friend. I'm healthy. He's healthy. We both have jobs. We enjoy each other's company.

We are fortunate. That's for sure.

And grateful, that's also for sure.

I'm hoping for sooner than a month and a half for you!!!  

I will be happy to fine you. 

Your fine is $75 you can pay me by cash or check but I prefer cash so check will cost you a $2.50 convience charge.  Thank you and have a nice day.

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Is there an option for currently so effing mad I could spit nails?  (no, I have no idea where that saying came from, but I got it from my mum). 

It will pass, but at the moment I'm so incredibly hurt and pizzed off that I want to yell, scream and hit something. 

I must have missed that as one of the options to check. 

Seriously conflicted.  On the positive side my business has officially doubled in size from last year and we will turn a profit this year for the first time since I started it.

On the beyond stressful side is figuring out how I am going to cashflow this monster and make it to year end.

I can understand seriously conflicted this morning!