Subject: RE: Conflicting emotions/post-triathlum depression Boy, I know just how you feel. I was totally depressed at my dismal performance this past weekend. My brain tells me that I just started swimming (in the pool ) in January and that I struggled with it so I shouldn't have had too many expectations. But my heart says I am a failure! The open water swimming was so much harder than I had anticipated. I could not swim a straight line and I panicked on the first day's swim (mountain bike on Saturday- Oly on Sunday ) and choked (literally ). I think I lowered the lake level by the amount of water I took in. However, I did manage to finish both days (.5m Sat. and .9 on Sunday ). I was kicked, swam over, dunked, etc. on the swim. I wanted to quit soooooo bad, but I didn't. During the 2nd day's swim I got vertigo from the long swim and looking up all of the time to see where I was so I ended up taking over 6 mins in T#1 until I could walk without wobbling. Oh well, this just tells me that I really need to do so open water swim training. I'm not ready to quit yet! I'm happy to know that there is someone that feels the same way I do. If you keep on I will too! |