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Just getting this de-motivation story off my chest.

I have been on holiday in Morocco for the past 16 days. I loved it there, but didn't do a lot of 'exercise' as such because a) it was far too hot for me and b) because I was too scared to go running with all the Moroccan men staring at me as if I was an alien (no offence to Moroccans but a white western woman is apparently a good catch!?!).

I get back on Saturday at midnight and I get up on Sunday and try to go running. I fail miserably and last 10 minutes before I almost collapse into a screaming heap on the pavement. I ended up doing weights instead and paid the price for doing two sessions in one day on Monday.

I have picked up a bug in Morocco and now I can't seem to hold any food in my system. I have been to the doctor who tells me there is nothing he can do. Bollocks. I tried to get up to go swimming this morning but once again I talked myself out of it.

I am totally de-motivated and I dont care anymore. I think I'd be better going to the gym 4 days a week, but then again I'm the type of person who can't sit still for 5 seconds so I'd get bored. I wish I had someone to train with, it's so hard to get up and motivate myself to go for an hour bike ride when I get bored and lonely by myself!

Sorry, just venting. I can't be bothered at the moment. I've lost 3kg and it's affected me in a way I never thought it would, I only weigh 56kg now, I left for my holiday weighing 59kg, and I can't afford to lose anymore!

HELP!