mchally - 2008-11-17 9:31 AM
I am a high-strung emotional wreck.
Of course, when I saw my psychiatrist last week I was feeling great, optimistic, and like nothing could go wrong. RED FLAG-nothing could go wrong??? Sounds like I was manic at the time and didn't realized it. Now I am rapid cycling-one moment on the verge of tears and a few hours later I am as high as a kite, living my perfect little world. Then, when I can't find find something(keys, an assignment for school, etc) or I am trying to do something and it doesn't go just as planned the world shatters and I go into a panic/anxiety attack. To keep from going completely nutty I just have to completely shut down, withdrawing into myself and focus on breathing-in....and out....in....and out....
I currently am focusing on breathing and will, when my lungs are once again functioning, go out for a run. Unfortunately, this throws my afternoon plans out the window and leaves a couple of friend in a tight place-too much to do and stuck taking buses or hoofing it.
Being Bipolar Sucks.
Any other manic-depressive person-or their close friends and family-could easily confirm this.
Alright-I am headed to a corner to sit on the floor and "meditate" (zone out). I'll try to check in this evening. I hope that everyone's day goes well.