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 2010-04-01 10:15 AM in reply to: #1319576 |
Extreme Veteran  1106   , Connecticut |  Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in!TriAya - You Rock! McHally - new relationships are exciting and this one sounds like you share a lot in common. I'm doing OK, struggling with fatigue - but eating well and working out. I want to make this a good tri season! MM |
| 2010-04-01 12:08 PM in reply to: #2760990 |
Extreme Veteran 1074 | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! mchally - 2010-03-31 3:26 PM Happy post...regarding a new acquaintance. I haven't gotten much sleep in the last 5 days. I've been up with my new guy friend and we've had some amazing nights. Waitaminute! Get your mind out of the gutter!  I've been engrossed in conversions both online and on the telephone. One night I got to bed by 2:30 am, but 3:30 to 4 am is more typical.We have something very special and I am sooooo excited. Nice! Love seeing the GOOD news in here! Thanks for sharing and have an awesome time with this dude! Lucky dog he is! |
| 2010-04-01 1:26 PM in reply to: #1319576 |
| Veteran 181 | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! Just checking in. Had a horrible training week due to some bipolar depression (yuck) but broke that yesterday by swimming a mile for the first time! Ran 5.62 miles last night (longest run ever!) and am headed out in a few to enjoy the beautiful sunny 60 degree day! Outside of training I met with a physician's assistant today as my doc was booked and aside from her being a space-case who didn't process anything I said the first time I said it, she sent me to get lamotrigine level tests for my psychiatrist appt. next week. Apparently I'm on a relatively low dose (100mg) and could go up a bit. We'll see. Otherwise I officially withdrew from grad school yesterday (medical withdrawal) because the last few weeks/months of depression and mood swings have thrown me off so badly I don't think I would be able to pass the classes. Graduated undergrad last year with high honors so I know I'm capable of hard work but the lack of effective medication or whatever just wouldn't allow it. It's unfortunate and now I have a part-time job with nothing else on the horizon but overall I think it'll be for the best to get myself healthy and then figure out the next step. My parents are as supportive as anybody could possibly be, which is incredible, so I'm lucky. |
| 2010-04-01 2:36 PM in reply to: #2763314 |
Expert 1158 Chicagoland | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! SammyKarch - 2010-04-01 1:26 PM Just checking in. Had a horrible training week due to some bipolar depression (yuck) but broke that yesterday by swimming a mile for the first time! Ran 5.62 miles last night (longest run ever!) and am headed out in a few to enjoy the beautiful sunny 60 degree day! Outside of training I met with a physician's assistant today as my doc was booked and aside from her being a space-case who didn't process anything I said the first time I said it, she sent me to get lamotrigine level tests for my psychiatrist appt. next week. Apparently I'm on a relatively low dose (100mg) and could go up a bit. We'll see. Otherwise I officially withdrew from grad school yesterday (medical withdrawal) because the last few weeks/months of depression and mood swings have thrown me off so badly I don't think I would be able to pass the classes. Graduated undergrad last year with high honors so I know I'm capable of hard work but the lack of effective medication or whatever just wouldn't allow it. It's unfortunate and now I have a part-time job with nothing else on the horizon but overall I think it'll be for the best to get myself healthy and then figure out the next step. My parents are as supportive as anybody could possibly be, which is incredible, so I'm lucky. Sorry about the withdrawal from school but I think you have the right perspective on getting healthly first. You want your mind to be clear. It is great that your parents are supportive. It looks like you are on your way to some better times which you definitely deserve. Good luck! |
| 2010-04-01 5:59 PM in reply to: #1319576 |
Pro 4189 Pittsburgh, my heart is in Glasgow | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! I'm going to just post a quick check in... Things are on an uptick for me. I had a minor/major breakthrough in my methodology reading that has made my Phd proposal so much easier to write. It is getting much sunnier which is definitely improving my mood. And taking a page from TriAya's playbook: And last week I co-adopted a dog with my parents. He's shacking up with them until we get a house, but I'm helping with training and walks and general doggy care. His name is Buddy, much to my dismay...I wanted to name him The Fonz because his shelter name was Alfonzo. He's a wire haired Jack Russell, and definitely acts it. He's a little butterball and loves to cuddle, has a little cowprint belly, and is ridiculously cute. Pictures as proof of cuteness:  Edited by phoenixazul 2010-04-01 6:00 PM |
| 2010-04-02 10:49 PM in reply to: #1319576 |
Extreme Veteran 1106 , Connecticut | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! Sammy, Hang in there. No shame in taking off a semester. I find that exercise really helps my moods. I used to think I could use it to get off meds, but without the meds I don't do the workouts and healthy eating. You're on the right track. The med adjustment could do the trick. I hate to admit, but when one of my meds went generic I started to have very neg. thoughts - like I shouldn't live etc. Got on another version (quick dissolving) of the name brand and realized those thoughts were gone in a few days. It's just amazing how chemical these things can be. It's hard to function when my brain turns on me, I'm finally thankful for the meds. MM |
| 2010-04-04 9:20 AM in reply to: #1319576 |
Extreme Veteran 1106 , Connecticut | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! Hope everyone has a good holiday and remember Just say NO to the chocolate bunnies! |
| 2010-04-06 3:10 PM in reply to: #2763314 |
Melon Presser 52116 | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! SammyKarch - 2010-04-02 3:26 AM Just checking in. Had a horrible training week due to some bipolar depression (yuck) but broke that yesterday by swimming a mile for the first time! Ran 5.62 miles last night (longest run ever!) and am headed out in a few to enjoy the beautiful sunny 60 degree day! Outside of training I met with a physician's assistant today as my doc was booked and aside from her being a space-case who didn't process anything I said the first time I said it, she sent me to get lamotrigine level tests for my psychiatrist appt. next week. Apparently I'm on a relatively low dose (100mg) and could go up a bit. We'll see. Otherwise I officially withdrew from grad school yesterday (medical withdrawal) because the last few weeks/months of depression and mood swings have thrown me off so badly I don't think I would be able to pass the classes. Graduated undergrad last year with high honors so I know I'm capable of hard work but the lack of effective medication or whatever just wouldn't allow it. It's unfortunate and now I have a part-time job with nothing else on the horizon but overall I think it'll be for the best to get myself healthy and then figure out the next step. My parents are as supportive as anybody could possibly be, which is incredible, so I'm lucky. Super, super job on the training! It's SO AWESOME to run farther than you ever have ... and a mile swim is phenomenal! Very good call on school, and I find the lack of self-pity and the gratitude so inspiring. It's easy for me to get into the shame game--but you are being so .... so ... healthy.  |
| 2010-04-06 3:15 PM in reply to: #2764037 |
Melon Presser 52116 | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! phoenixazul - 2010-04-02 7:59 AM I'm going to just post a quick check in... Things are on an uptick for me. I had a minor/major breakthrough in my methodology reading that has made my Phd proposal so much easier to write. It is getting much sunnier which is definitely improving my mood. And taking a page from TriAya's playbook: And last week I co-adopted a dog with my parents. He's shacking up with them until we get a house, but I'm helping with training and walks and general doggy care. His name is Buddy, much to my dismay...I wanted to name him The Fonz because his shelter name was Alfonzo. He's a wire haired Jack Russell, and definitely acts it. He's a little butterball and loves to cuddle, has a little cowprint belly, and is ridiculously cute. There is NUTTIN' cuter than a pair o' pups, indeed. Can you post a pic of the cowprint belly? Good news on the proposal front ... I remember those days. Yikes. It was tough. Beautiful to see YOU sunnier. |
| 2010-04-06 4:35 PM in reply to: #1319576 |
Master 2629 brummie land | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! yay! triaya AND phoenixazul all in one place
somebody from team skinny recommended i pop in here so here i am.
not gonna post anymore now as i need beauty sleep but will type a proper post soon
j xx |
| 2010-04-06 4:39 PM in reply to: #2767358 |
| Master 2629 brummie land | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! MuscleMomma - 2010-04-04 3:20 PM Hope everyone has a good holiday and remember Just say NO to the chocolate bunnies!
why hello recommender |
| 2010-04-07 10:07 PM in reply to: #1319576 |
Extreme Veteran 1106 , Connecticut | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! Sappho |
| 2010-04-13 5:53 AM in reply to: #1319576 |
| Master 2629 brummie land | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! having a rough time of it at the moment and could with some support. meant to be in work today and just couldn't face going in. was attacked in work last july and still struggling with the after effects: today i freaked. work is no longer a safe concept to me and it's really messing with my ability to get there.
i am starting counselling for it next monday but has anybody got any encouragement on how to cope between now and then? one positive step i have taken is that i have begun the process of registering with a local temping agency as a back up, but tbh i do get a real buzz out of the work i do, but i just want to feel safe again! |
| 2010-04-13 9:22 AM in reply to: #2787305 |
Extreme Veteran 1074 | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! sappho96 - 2010-04-13 5:53 AM having a rough time of it at the moment and could with some support. meant to be in work today and just couldn't face going in. was attacked in work last july and still struggling with the after effects: today i freaked. work is no longer a safe concept to me and it's really messing with my ability to get there.
i am starting counselling for it next monday but has anybody got any encouragement on how to cope between now and then? one positive step i have taken is that i have begun the process of registering with a local temping agency as a back up, but tbh i do get a real buzz out of the work i do, but i just want to feel safe again! Hey! A little over 8 yrs ago, I quit drinking. Went to my first AA meeting and afterwards was like "OK now WTF do I do? How do I make it to the Next one?" Wish I had something concrete to tell you other than hang on. Youre in the right place though. We've all had to deal with "coping between now and then...." For me its always been to find that one positive thing, that one thing I cannot give up and just hold on to it in the front of my mind. Many a time, the image of my kids kept me out of the abyss. You just gotta find something, grab on to it and dont let go. Hang in there and keep checking here. Someone will have something more articulate to say than me and just know we are all on your side! |
| 2010-04-14 2:45 AM in reply to: #2787305 |
Extreme Veteran 1175 Langley, BC, 'Wet Coast' Canada | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! sappho96 - 2010-04-13 3:53 AM having a rough time of it at the moment and could with some support. meant to be in work today and just couldn't face going in. was attacked in work last july and still struggling with the after effects: today i freaked. work is no longer a safe concept to me and it's really messing with my ability to get there.
i am starting counselling for it next monday but has anybody got any encouragement on how to cope between now and then? one positive step i have taken is that i have begun the process of registering with a local temping agency as a back up, but tbh i do get a real buzz out of the work i do, but i just want to feel safe again! Hey Jackie I am sorry to hear that you are going through a rough time. It sounds like you are feeling conflicted/guilty about not feeling up to going to work, as well as dealing with the actual trauma.... I have no magic words to help, but just wanted to let you know that your request for support had not fallen upon a deaf forum !! I hope that you are able to accept your feelings for what they are -YOUR feelings. I have had a lot of trouble doing that for most of my life, and it has only been in the past few years (in group therapy!) that I was able to learn to accept them for what they are - feelings. As for dealing with the trauma that you went through, I think that you are taking the steps needed, by seeing a counsellor/therapist. I am still 'gun-shy- around people, after being bullied quite a bit as a kid, and quite violently attacked as a young adult, though I wear 'the mask' well now! As for encouragement for the time until next Monday - Chicagoman has given you some great advice. It is like when you struggle to complete a run, and you keep telling yourself that you can run until the next lightpost/stop sign/fencepost....and the next one, and the next one.... Just focus on getting through today! Then tomorrow, focus on getting through 'today'....Monday will come. Congrats on taking the effort to register with the temp agency! That is proactive on your part, and sounds quite healthy!! cheers, and let us know how you are getting along |
| 2010-04-14 12:53 PM in reply to: #1319576 |
Extreme Veteran 1106 , Connecticut | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! Hey Sappho - one step at a time. Get up and get dressed. even if you don't go to work, go food shopping and treat yourself to something yummy and healthy. I agree that you are taking some good steps in self care - even posting here! If it's warm where you are, are your windows open? getting some fresh air? Sometimes I'm bummed about letting another day drift by, but if I've done the laundry or dishes it helps me get a start the next day. You're OK! |
| 2010-04-15 9:05 AM in reply to: #1319576 |
Expert 1158 Chicagoland | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! Need some help. I am sinking once again but I know I am sinking so at least there is some recognition. My problem is that I don't have any goals. Yeah, I am signed up for a tri in June but it is just there. I have never had any goals. My aim was just one day at a time and try not to screw up that day. Usually it was a failure so why bother looking forward. My question is how do you do it? Goal setting, any possible disappointment, achieving that goal, etc.. It is a stupid question, I know, but I just can't get it. Not sure if I ever will. |
| 2010-04-16 2:30 AM in reply to: #2793518 |
Extreme Veteran 1175 Langley, BC, 'Wet Coast' Canada | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! TeddieMao - 2010-04-15 7:05 AM Need some help. I am sinking once again but I know I am sinking so at least there is some recognition. My problem is that I don't have any goals. Yeah, I am signed up for a tri in June but it is just there. I have never had any goals. My aim was just one day at a time and try not to screw up that day. Usually it was a failure so why bother looking forward. My question is how do you do it? Goal setting, any possible disappointment, achieving that goal, etc.. It is a stupid question, I know, but I just can't get it. Not sure if I ever will. Hey there, TeddieMao I feel for ya, and am sending a virtual lifeline out to you. I honestly do not think that what you have asked is a stupid question, but it sounds like you might be a little ashamed for being in the situation where you feel that you need to ask it - I am familiar with THAT feeling... At least you recognize that you are slipping and are asking ahead of time for some encouragement - that sounds hopeful, to me. It also sounds very frustrated.... You have actually used a couple of 'goal-oriented' words in your post (goals, signed up-for something in the future-, aim, looking forward....) I don't know what that all means, really, but thought it worthy of being pointed out. Have you ever spoken with a counsellor, to help with goal-setting, and to learn why you feel frustrated in your previous attempts? I usually feel that I don't really have anything helpful to post in response to someone's situation, but I wanted you to know that there are many people in this thread who care, and look forward to reading about how you have overcome this current challenge (and you will overcome it!) |
| 2010-04-16 2:43 PM in reply to: #1319576 |
Extreme Veteran 1106 , Connecticut | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! TeddieMao, I don't think your problem is making goals or motivation. You sound depressed. If you can address the depression (have you tried meds?) the rest will come. I found life so hard too, then when I found the right meds I see how people do things - it's not such a struggle for them, or me on meds. How are you doing today? |
| 2010-04-16 3:33 PM in reply to: #2796963 |
Expert 1158 Chicagoland | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! MuscleMomma - 2010-04-16 2:43 PM TeddieMao, I don't think your problem is making goals or motivation. You sound depressed. If you can address the depression (have you tried meds?) the rest will come. I found life so hard too, then when I found the right meds I see how people do things - it's not such a struggle for them, or me on meds. How are you doing today? I've been depressed for about 30 years (since I was 12). Been on meds and therapy for about 10. Sorta have drug resistant depression. I am working hard on it but it is getting more and more painful as I get older. It is a roller-coaster ride that becomes very painful. I am trying to look forward instead of behind and realized that I have few goals. Thanks for listening. |
| 2010-04-16 11:04 PM in reply to: #1319576 |
Extreme Veteran 1106 , Connecticut | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! TeddyMao, I'm so sorry to hear about your ongoing struggles. Have you tried small goals? I have times where I focus on making the bed when I get out of it, open the blinds around the house, and get dressed. Sometimes it takes till noon... |
| 2010-04-17 8:40 AM in reply to: #1319576 |
| Master 2629 brummie land | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! same here. today's goal is get showered, get dressed and have my friend to dinner. really small goals for someone who is well but important for me.
as for dealing with on-going depression i still haven't got an answer! |
| 2010-04-21 9:56 PM in reply to: #1319576 |
Extreme Veteran 1106 , Connecticut | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! Hi all, hope everyone is having a good week. I'm home with kids this week, school vacation. I never do well with it. Don't make it to the gym and feel isolated at home. Oh well, it's just a week. |
| 2010-04-22 9:25 AM in reply to: #2808963 |
| Master 2629 brummie land | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! any chance you could arrange a play date for your kiddiewinks and escape for an hour or two? just an idea from a non-parent! |
| 2010-04-22 9:37 AM in reply to: #1319576 |
Expert 1158 Chicagoland | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! How about going to the Mystic Aquarium? I saw that you lived in NE CT. My sister lives in Ledyard! |
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