As I think about my journey back into triathlons after doing very little training for the last 7 years 
(last tri was in 2017
), I am very reflective of why I am coming back, and what is my motivation. 
 
I DNFd the only Half Ironman I signed up for 
(2008 Kansas 70.3
), which was right before our little family started growing.  My family has stopped growing 
(1 wife and 2 kids
), and now that the kids are grown up a bit 
(15 and 9
), training is easier to work into my schedule. 
 
But, as I have been in the gym lifting weights regularly since the start of the year, and started running more consistently again, I step back and think about my motivation.  What's my why. 
 
I am not as young as I used to be 
(45 this summer
) and I don't recover as fast as I used to.  I need to train smarter this time around, and be more mindful of it.  But as I train, I realize I feel...alive, vibrant, healthy, and strong!  I can keep up with my kids in sports, and have the mental focus to lead my family and my team at work.  I have strength, energy, and passion again.   
 
And I'm curious - what's your "why"?  What are we doing this all for?  Some of us are chasing demons; some of us are running from the same demons; some of us just love training and racing.  What's your "why" ?