my self motivation

So I had a long, rough night at work.....trying to motivate myself to exercise in the morning when i get off.  Posting makes it more real somehow. 

Nothing quite like going for a swim early in the morning, even if it is after a 12 hour shift. My husband will be in bed so there will be no one at home to talk to, might as well go work out. 

The water is moderately chilly in the municiple pool, but clean and not usually very crowded at 7am. When I start I will imeadiately plunge into an element that can make me gracefull and drown out all the noice of the day in one instance. All that I will hear is the sound of water as it moves around me. With each stroke I image that I am reaching for the invisible pegs just out of reach to pull me down the path, as I reach I can feel my body become longer and release tension through each glide.  Occasionally I will get into a rythm of reach, rotate, pull, glide and kick that I can feel is perfect. Each lap is the accomplishment of a goal and another moment of silence and movement (the perfect combination to reflect on the day without the oportunty to become obsorbed in it).  The water will start to feel to warm about half way through, but that is only a sign I am working hard.  I will push in as many laps as time allows and have a few minutes to stretch in the water while I wait for the locker room to clear out.   By the end my body is aware of activity, yet relaxed and ready to go to bed and prepare for the next day knowing I acomplished at least one thing that went well.

Ok, I am determined to go now. Maybe I will get there in time to finish a mile again.

Thanks for letting me ramble