Depression and Moods- Check in! (Page 10)

Xmas just seems like a very lonely time.  I don't know what it is.  Especially up north, the days are shorter,darker, and the snow makes everything so quiet.  I have always disliked the holidays and I come from a family of six.  Maybe it was my constantly arguing parents or maybe it was depression.  Now married and with 2 kids I still get low during this time.  But you know what it is just one day!   And my son loves this one day so I get through it.  The 364 other days are not Xmas so I am going to enjoy them.  Tricupcake, It is hard and I have been alone while my exes were "enjoying" themselves with new boyfriends and their family.  So what!   Enjoy the time to yourself, sleep when you want, eat what you want, you're your own boss!   Your ex was probably a barrier or obstacle to something better in your life.  Climb over that obstacle and tackle something/someone that deserves YOU.  Well don't actually tackle anyone because that just gets you in trouble but when you least expect a great moment to happen it happens.  Happy Holidays to everyone!!!!!!

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I hope the reason this is on Pg 2 is because everyone is doing fine.  If that is the case...Woooo Hoooo.  I am guessing not but hoping so.

I have wrapped myself up in training and just completed me first marathon last Sun at Disney.  I was worried that post race would be tough since I would have some major recovery time but 1 week post race and things are going along pretty well.  I start a HIM training plan today so I hope this keeps me out of the darkness.

We shall see.

Steve

Hey, hows everyone doing out there?  Time to check in....I am good, busy, and feeling OK.  Coming up on 1 yr now that Ive been seeing shrinks and taking meds and they have totally helped.  Life aint perfect, but its not a bowl of all the time anymore.  Between that and 7 years sober, its going as well as can be expected.

Hope everyone else is doing OK out there.

Hey Chicagoman!

I am actually doing pretty bad but not that many people actually post here, so I don't bother.  I have been very depressed and my therapy has been very hard (remembering childhood things that happened).  Add on top of that, lots of snow cold and ice - mixed with depression and trauma recovery - and I have gained 10 pounds since January 5th.

Anyway, was going to try to go swim at the gym this mrning but the thought of cleaning off my car in these temperatures just makes me want to cry even more than I am already crying.

Must keep training.

dbw27

Hey dbw27

A lot of us check this thread regularly so if it helps you to post know that someone will see it.  I am sorry you are having a hard time.  This is a rough time of year for many folks and the terrible weather it sounds like you are having does not make it easier.

Keep working with the Dr.s and you WILL get through this.  The weight gain is temporary and if it helps to workout then do everything you can to make it happen.....even doing something at home is better than doing nothing.

Best of luck to you and you will be in our thoughts and prayers.

ChicagoMan...Congrats and glad to hear you are doing better....and SUPER CONGRATS on the Sober Time....Wooo Hooo.

Steve

Yes--even if we don't post, we do check up on the thread ...

Thank you for posting, and so sorry to hear you are having a hard time. I really, really, hear you. You are doing amazing things for yourself--seeking help, sorting through things, getting better--and even though it can feel really awful, you are SO doing such good things! I promise, it will get better. Yes, it's dark--and sometimes, for brief periods, it gets even darker. But it will get better.

The dark/cold thing is a true bummer. The exercise will definitely help, and I agree with Steve (Reno8) who is a wonderful kind soul who truly understands how difficult it can be ... but even if you can do an exercise DVD at home or just get a few laps around the block, it can be a good lift.

All the best to you--my thoughts and prayers as well.

Just checking in on everyone and to get this thread off of page 2.

Hope everyone is headed into spring healthy and ready to get after it.

I have actually been doing better after the holidays...as usual for me, and I am excited about that.  I start a new primary care physician on the 30th of March and I have been thinking about how I want to discuss the past depression issues I have had.  I want to minimize that stuff but yet not totally ignore it.  A lot of the cognative things I have been doing lately have really helped so....I don;t know.

We Shall See

Steve

Just wondering if anyone is still checking this thread??   I'm pretty new to BT and would love to hear from others who may be in similar situations!

I think the reason most people don't post as much is because there is still a stigma attached to depression.  So, unfortunately, though there may be a good number of BT'ers who suffer from depression I believe it is very hard to talk about on a forum like this.  It's an illness, it won't get better by hiding it.  Personally I don't think any less of a person if they open up but understand if it is hard.

Chicago is a big city so you would think it would be easy meeting people but it is not.  When I moved here it wasn't until I joined a club (Sports & Social) that I actually met people.  If I were you I would join a tri-club (Chicago Tri Club is mine) so you get to meet some people with your interests.

You're definitely brave for coming on here and opening up, you're not giving up which is great.   Bad days are inevitable but there is always something good around the corner!

I'll check in too.  I haven't been doing any training whatsoever this year.  I've hurt my knee a couple of times this year and that, combined with my lack of motivation, has kept me from training.  My divorce was final in March and have already had my heart broken.  I forgot how tough and discouraging dating can be.  On a good note, I am enjoying living alone.  My house finally feels like a place of refuge for the first time in a very long time.

I totally understand what you mean about making friends as an adult.  I've been in the Chicago area for 8 years and my only friends are people from work.  Not that there's anything wrong with having friends from work, I just feel like such a loser that I can't make any other kinds of friends.  My very good friends are back in Texas and although we try to keep in touch, I feel those connections slipping away.

Kudos to everyone that has been training!  I promised myself that once my work schedule gets back to normal I'm going to get back to it and hopefully be able to run a 5k at some point in October.

Thanks for everyone's advice/input...keep it coming

And to answer a question from above...yes my thyroid has been checked.  I have been ~fortunate~ in that every doctor usually runs through the gammut (sp?) of blood tests to attribute my symptoms to "common" problems...thyroid, anema...etc.  I've moved around so much that I've been to about 5 different doctors since the onset and everyone has done a thorough job of testing these things.  I'm no doctor - but I'm feeling good on the anti-depressants...so I'd guess that is what is going on....

I just wanted to share a something that I've read on this forum and remind myself....I like the idea to work out hard on my up days and when those bad days come along, to give myself a break - - and DON'T beat myself up for it!!  (I realized this applies to tri's AND life in general! )

I also want to say that this "website" (although I almost consider it a super-site!) Has provided me with a great support group.  I tried a few - OA, CODA...but this has been the best.  Lots of people to talk to and I can do it when I have time or when I NEED to!  So thanks to the creators...and thanks to everyone who helps make it helpful!!!

I know lack of $ is an issue - and I don't even know what to suggest about student loans, but yuck!! 

You could also look online (or have someone go to a pawn shop) and look for an old nintendo or something...Dr Mario or super marios could probably keep me entertained for a while... (sad, but true)

Good luck!  Let me/us know how things are going!