Subject: RE: The "Ultimate COJ Thread About Nothing" Thread # 3spokes - 2007-05-29 1:44 PM lvthgme - 2007-05-29 1:42 PM spokes - 2007-05-29 3:39 PM I'm alone, and if I were to drop dead this instant, I would not be missed. That is the worst feeling in the world. It's not TRUE by the way, but it doesn't mean you can't FEEL that way at times. I'm praying for you. Thanks, but I highly doubt the Supreme Being (or whatever it is) has much interest in me, if any at all. I gave up on religion as a solution to anything long ago - not that it doesn't work for other people, because obviously it does. I know I'm not a doctor (nor do I play one on TV) but have you thought about seeing someone about possible bi-polar disorder? (Just hear me out!!) You are an amazing person with a lot of energy. And granted, I don't know you in RL (yet) but it seems that your highs are really high and your lows are really low. (i.e., feeling that you need to alienate your friends and thoughts of suicide.) My boss suffers with it and once he was diagnosed and began treatment (no, not just drugs) he was able to regulate his emotions and began to function without the drastic mood swings. Just a thought. I would really really hate for you to leave us. (BT or otherwise.) Sometimes things are just too much for us to deal with on our own. We're here for you, but I think you should get some RL help. Thinking/talking about suicide is a big deal. And please know that I say this in love and friendship. I adore you and want you to be healthy. Inside and outside. |