Subject: RE: Does anyone train for the wrong reasons?You want dark motivations? I suspect - although it's a hard thing to admit, even to myself - that I train because I am at heart angry at the world, and losing myself in the moment is the only way to find any peace.
I will add my name to this limited list. I've been thinking about this a great deal lately.
First, I think motivations are as infinite. Imaine making a recipe with unlimited spices in unlimited amounts. We can probably never discern them all!
Second, personally, I find extreme physical exertion to be cathartic. I am angry (inside ) most of the time. I am happy (outside ) most of the time.
When I am training, the anger comes to the surface and I can release it. It comes in many shapes and forms and is unleashed at many things. But the bottom line is it is released.
I find great motivation when I am suffering to think back on horrible situations in my life and focus upon the negative emotions that come up.
"As Freud spins in his grave." |