Nibbs XXXVIII (Page 53)

Ok, time to get ready for my day...I am hoping that a hot shower will help clear out my lungs. 

blech.

I like the low eighties when it is breezy and NOT humid.  

Hi hi! I'm in training chat ...

ooh I forgot that was on... will come join you

argh!   I need to see my psych but he is on vacation/leave for a while...This sucks.

Want to know why I am so far behind in school???

It is because I am trying to overdo everything!  

I have been trying to make single page writeups into reference books!

I spent 3 days on something that should take an hour, maybe an hour and a half, and then throw it aside in frustration because it isn't coming out like I want it too.

Stupid! Stupid! Stupid!

This has been going on for weeks, maybe months...(well, it has been the biggest cause of me not accomplishing things throughout my entire life)

I have been exhibiting a lot more OCD behaviors over the last few months.  It is probably interrelated and some sort of medication adjustments would be a huge help.

 Brain chemical imbalances suck.  There are so many variables, you find a drug cocktail that works for you and then something changes...stress, activities, weather, whatever...and everything needs to be adjusted.  In the process of finding the right combo is a lot of trial and error.

which means a rough road...off days, anxiety attacks, manic episodes, depression...yep, lots of fun.

It really is a rough road and I sympathize.

No need to baddogg or stupid-stupid yourself--it doesn't help and it isn't true. Do look at the amazing things you can do and if there are any small steps you can take to "do less." 

it is just that I know better, but still am unable to change my focus.  Part of me is having a stubborn fit and refusing to listen logical reasoning and common sense.

I need to pack up and head home.  Another day that I have spent hours on school work and have nothing to show for it.  Some nice links..article...tons of awesome ideas for these assignments, but I get bogged down in little things...formatting, organization, making it look appealing...

I need to just do it on scratch paper by hand and turn it in.  maybe sketch a picture or too...forget finding all the great material on the internet...

ack...I need to go.

Maybe I'll catch you tomorrow. 

D001 - 2009-03-16 10:37 AM

kns57 - 2009-03-16 9:47 AM Morning Nibbs.  Y'all need to stop hanging out on Peep Show and come back to haning out on Nibbs.  LOL

Especially since I'm not even *ON* Team Peep Show!

Yes I left you a message on Peep Show.

HI MIKE!!!

I'm waiting for four guys who look just like you to oh, arrive at my doorstep. Today is heaven.

Morning Nibbs,

Passwords timed out and some brainiac put them all on the same IT ticket....nothing is coming up.  I am so hampered by not having access to the 2 systems I use EVERY DAY.  It's INSANE to try and handle a case without these systems!

I had issues sleeping last night...actually the reasons worried me.  It was a re-occurrence of a nasty side effect from a medication I stopped a year ago (abilify) that become permanent.  I don't like the prospective that this side effect is going to stick around.  It is basically severe RLS...involuntary muscle contractions/spasms in my arms and legs.  It is enough to drive a person insane. The only solution I have found is a strong sleeping pill.  The symptom generally occurs when I am really tired.

Anyway, I got in 3 hours less sleep than I had planned on.

I love passwords that expire when you're away and then when you get back to start work, you can't!  What a PITA