Yanti & Salty MAD MANATEES Mentor Group - FULL POD (Page 68)

That's how I feel about my bike. Every time I take it out, I think "I am not worthy. I am not worthy." It was just an ebay bike for $500 (There was a thread about Craigs List Bikes for $500 which I found hysterical for that reason), but it is still waaay more bike than I can handle. Even my LBS was impressed. I love my bike, but it is nothing like that bike. Way out of my league.

I still think my goals are appropriate, but not eating sweets has been almost impossible (for me) in the last couple days. Too many parties. But they should be over now.

I lost two pounds on my run yesterday, but I didn't record it, because I actually spent the day yesterday drinking water to gain that weight back. lol

Since we're talking about peeing (kind of), I finished my run at 9:30 a.m. I didn't pee until almost 1:00 p.m., and I forced myself to "try." Very little and very dark. I kept drinking water, and went again at about 5:00. Then last night, wow -- like every two hours, all night long. So success (in a way), but maybe I overdid it a little?

Wait, what?  Oh well yeah it probably is, and I'm OK with that at least it's not like causing a volcano to erupt that would be bad to be responsible for...

A little too much tequila last night made for a later than planned run in the heat today, only did 2 miles but hey it's another day in a row of training!  Packing today and cleaning the bike for the trip to DC tomorrow and the Unity Tour next week.

Two miles is infinitely more than zero!

Actually, we're not doing that badly at all (the spreadsheet formulas were messed up), ESPECIALLY once Allen starts LOGGING his swimming and insulting ...

YES - THAT'S TOTALLY IT, I DON'T FEEL WORTHY!  I got self esteem issues at the moment in all areas!  What's that about?!  met a tri squad coach at the LBS on Saturday said come along to his sessions though he was aware he wouldn't pull me away from Johnny!  He said, I'm not in his league in the hotness stakes!  Anyway, it was good to meet Clinton, and I will go along for some rides and some runs after HIM Cairns.  He coached a few friends to IM this year and they did under 12 hours!  A dream for me   I'm thinking under 17.

so I need talking up people!  Once this race is done and hopefully completed I will feel a whole heap better about myself, just the self doubt in my head, stopping me sleeping, stopping me smiling a little bit.  Anyone ever used a sports psychologist?

cdban66 - 2012-05-06 9:31 AM Good morning everyone, I hope that all is well. Brie - I love the pics, they were beautiful. Oh, and BTW, it is "WE Manatees" since we are one big, happy family Claire - Awesome HM time, I too would kill to go under 2 hours. I have nothing for you on the surprise pee issue. However, it is good to see that all is back to normal. Felicia - You'll nail the sweets thing, I am sure of it (no pressure) Jo - Another awe inspiring swim. I was going to skip the pool today, but I. MUST. SWIM. BETTER. And you are currently setting the pace for me to catch. Thanks for that! I had an hour long run with my sister through the park today. It was a humid day, so that was pretty brutal. However, the eagle was out of the nest, just sitting on a branch. He/she is a good sized one, too. That and the osprey we saw later in the run really made the morning start out right. Then I jumped in the shower and headed to church. I had to canter this morning, but I bailed on the rest of the church service. Slipped out the back and took off. Next stop is the pool (thanks Jo), then mom's house for yardwork. I hope that all is good for all the Manatees, and that you are taking care of yourselves and your loved ones. Find your joy in the moment you are in and the people you are with.

Thanks for that - exactly what I needed - keep it all in perspective there.  Had a few tears reading that and you are sooo right.  Find joy in the moment that's what I'm gonna try and do!  Had some joy yesterday was getting changed after my run so had my crop top and skins on, my husband says - wow Jo you gotta six pack!  I'm happy with that.

cdban66 - 2012-05-06 9:31 AM Good morning everyone, I hope that all is well. Brie - I love the pics, they were beautiful. Oh, and BTW, it is "WE Manatees" since we are one big, happy family Claire - Awesome HM time, I too would kill to go under 2 hours. I have nothing for you on the surprise pee issue. However, it is good to see that all is back to normal. Felicia - You'll nail the sweets thing, I am sure of it (no pressure) Jo - Another awe inspiring swim. I was going to skip the pool today, but I. MUST. SWIM. BETTER. And you are currently setting the pace for me to catch. Thanks for that! I had an hour long run with my sister through the park today. It was a humid day, so that was pretty brutal. However, the eagle was out of the nest, just sitting on a branch. He/she is a good sized one, too. That and the osprey we saw later in the run really made the morning start out right. Then I jumped in the shower and headed to church. I had to canter this morning, but I bailed on the rest of the church service. Slipped out the back and took off. Next stop is the pool (thanks Jo), then mom's house for yardwork. I hope that all is good for all the Manatees, and that you are taking care of yourselves and your loved ones. Find your joy in the moment you are in and the people you are with.

Thanks for that - exactly what I needed - keep it all in perspective there.  Had a few tears reading that and you are sooo right.  Find joy in the moment that's what I'm gonna try and do!  Had some joy yesterday was getting changed after my run so had my crop top and skins on, my husband says - wow Jo you gotta six pack!  I'm happy with that.

cdban66 - 2012-05-06 9:31 AM Good morning everyone, I hope that all is well. Brie - I love the pics, they were beautiful. Oh, and BTW, it is "WE Manatees" since we are one big, happy family Claire - Awesome HM time, I too would kill to go under 2 hours. I have nothing for you on the surprise pee issue. However, it is good to see that all is back to normal. Felicia - You'll nail the sweets thing, I am sure of it (no pressure) Jo - Another awe inspiring swim. I was going to skip the pool today, but I. MUST. SWIM. BETTER. And you are currently setting the pace for me to catch. Thanks for that! I had an hour long run with my sister through the park today. It was a humid day, so that was pretty brutal. However, the eagle was out of the nest, just sitting on a branch. He/she is a good sized one, too. That and the osprey we saw later in the run really made the morning start out right. Then I jumped in the shower and headed to church. I had to canter this morning, but I bailed on the rest of the church service. Slipped out the back and took off. Next stop is the pool (thanks Jo), then mom's house for yardwork. I hope that all is good for all the Manatees, and that you are taking care of yourselves and your loved ones. Find your joy in the moment you are in and the people you are with.

Thanks for that - exactly what I needed - keep it all in perspective there.  Had a few tears reading that and you are sooo right.  Find joy in the moment that's what I'm gonna try and do!  Had some joy yesterday was getting changed after my run so had my crop top and skins on, my husband says - wow Jo you gotta six pack!  I'm happy with that.

Way to go, Claire!!  

I had a whole season of UPS in 2006.  I also had a whole season of unknown, uncontrolled skid marks in 2011. Luckily they were not the same season and luckily it seems to go away eventually (of course something new and grosser seems to take its place that makes it not seem so bad). 

Loaded in plan for 1/2 marathon on 5/26 all the way to USAF marathon on 9/15.  Feeling a bit empowered after last Sunday. 

Starting No "S" Diet tomorrow.  Saw a friend who has had a lot of success changing her eating habits and not feeling deprived.  Its basically no sweets, no snacks, no seconds except on days that start with "S" or "S"pecial days (holidays, anniversaries, birthdays, etc...).  I know I will whine a lot the 1st 3 weeks until I get used to eating "meals" again and not just grazing like a cow all day long. 

I breathe; therefore, I am worthy of breathing.

Darling Jo. {{{MELON PRESS}}} You're great at talking up other people; I hope you would write down what you would say to me (or whatever you said to me at the bike station) or another friend who was feeling the way you are. Then read it TO YOURSELF, FOR YOURSELF. Because it is true. It would be the truest words there are, for they were written as a gift.

You are amazing today, and you are to be celebrated today, and to celebrate, simply because you ARE. This would be true whether you are training, or not training; whether you do the race, or not; and how well or not you did in the race.

How you feel is important, and there are things you can do and assistance you can seek to feel better, but how you feel is not who you are.

I am no less of an athlete because I can't train in certain ways right now. I have no less of an iron will because I wasn't able to finish IM Melbourne.

You are a marvelous friend, a very generous and loving mother and wife, you train very hard and are an excellent athlete, and you're diligent, dependable, and consistent. (Not to mention really hot, with a 6-pack. ) How you FEEL changes none of that.

That said, I have not used a sports psychologist, but I've written for them. I have used many non-specialist (and several specialist) psychotherapists, though. If you're experiencing self-esteem issues all around, and it's affecting your life in ways you do not like, a good psychologist who suits your needs, character and goals will be able to help you, regardless of whether they specialize in sports psychology.

I love the Manatees, all make me feel better.  I'm not good at sharing how I feel but this forum is great for it!  Anyway, yes I am worthy and I need to get over myself! 

Finding joy in the moment, that's my new mantra.  Just at my desk had the best latte and now for some work, in a job I love actually, how many people can say that?!

Yanti thanks for caring even when sooooo sick!

I am feeling better this morning after reading this!  And I got swim squad tonight!  yay!

I have been keeping up with everyone's posts, and congrats and happiness to all those who have posted--I would actually write names and stuff, but the truth is, I feel like 7 mega-tons of crap right now...I can only hope that its my allergies acting up in the worst way possible, and not a cold. Its the last week of school before finals week, and only 2 weeks til one of my bigger races this season... I DON'T WANNA BE SICK RIGHT NOW!!!!

hm. That didn't help, I still feel icky.

Anyway, as someone else posted, I hope everyone is well and happy! 

He really said that? What was that supposed to mean?

Well, I think you are awesome. I am so jealous of almost everything you do, but especially the swimming. Your speed is amazing. Your dedication and consistency in training is admirable.

I haven't used a sports psychologist before, but I can see why people would.

I get those inadequate feelings. A lot. But I really try to dismiss them. I try to remind myself that I really am doing the best that I can with the body and time that I have. I have also tried to develop a broader view of training and my performance. I know that I will improve this season, because I improved last season, but it may take 4 or 5 seasons to get to where I want to be, both in training and performance. Maybe it will take longer than that. I'm trying to be patient with myself and forgiving.

The problem is, if you are like me this might be one of your issues, too, I am secretly extremely competitive. So even though intellectually I try to tell myself that I'm really just racing against my own performance, I can't help noticing what just about everyone else on the course is doing. That's when I start to beat myself up.

ETA: I'm glad you are feeling better already. What a nice thing your husband said. See. You do have "hotness."

In our local triathlon community coach Johnny is renowned for having all the girl triathletes wanna train with him coz he's easy on the eye, and an eligible bachelor as well!  He's also one of the best swim coaches around, good friends with Michael Klim so that is a bonus.

I'm actually not very competitive at all BUT I've always been the girly girl of my family - the rest of my siblings being very sporty and competitive, I was always too busy with make up and clothes to care much about sport - so my family and parents are in constant disbelief at what I'm doing and those feelings of being the unsporty one have stuck with me.

Every event I complete makes these feelings fade a little.  I'm getting better!  Yes my husband was truly envious of my little ab muscle thing going on!

All in all it was a good weekend - especially the new bike!  Only 4 weeks til HIM, I'm bound to be jittery.

Thanks for caring!  Manatees rock!

Whew! All caught up on the weekend posts.  Interesting (entertaining) conversations this weekend.  Must confess I'm also not a fan of poptarts, or nutella for that matter.  But I love dogs and cats (have 2 of each).

I'm back from Denver and still up to date on my training! Recovery this week and a sprint next weekend (woohoo)!

Sorry about that. I'm finding it hard to face the pool right now, or get the bike out for that matter, yet i seem to be keen on running, which is wierd cos i don't like running normally (what am i doing in this sport?????). I blame Salty for being so encouraging. I am sooo not used to that from her.

I mean, look at me, about to sneak out the door for a 3 mile trail run and it's not even 7am yet. It's not normal. When Jo has finished with her psychologist, she better send him/her to me so i can be cured.

I vote instead of psychology I try that tequila - or my favourite Shiraz red wine....the answer can be found in there I'm sure!

Tequila seems to work for Kirk, i'm a merlot man, shiraz for you and beer (or anything from a brewery it seems) suits Salty just fine. All of them seem a better way of spending money than on a psychologist.  They are just people who don't want a real job and prefer to get paid to listen to people moan.

Back from my 3.5m run and your sandwich sounds nice. mmmmm.

By the way, who's counting my insults/motivation on Salty? How's the old trout done on her run?Hope she socked it to 'em.

I make that three.

I can't believe my first tri is this Sunday! Ahhh! I had a really good bike ride yesterday, went 21 miles (it was supposed to be 15, but I got lost) and it was hillier than I expected...you should have been in my head when, after the first 8 miles were several tough climbs, I turned up Providence Hill Road and thought (1) Yes, I recognize this road name, this is my turn (which was correct) and then (2) OMG Providence HILL Road?  And sure enough, I rounded the bend and there was this ridiculous hill of steep grade and probably a quarter mile long (I wanted to say a mile, but that's a total exaggeration).  I stopped, checked my phone maps to see if there was any other way home, but alas, there was not (other than longer ways that would probably involve hills as well), so I said, Brianna, put your game face on, drop it into a low gear, and climb.  As I headed up, I was peddling so slow and the resistance was still too much.  Then I realized I was still in my big ring! Ahhaha, I have a whole set of easier gears still!! Duh!! Dropped it to the small ring and slowly made my way up, praying the top wasn't a false rise with more hill behind.  It wasn't, and I made it to the top!! Woohoo!!  Then I took a wrong turn, adding 5 miles to my ride, oops!  But it was mostly flat or downhill the rest of the way.  Got home, told myself to start running and see what happens.  It's uphill from my house, no matter which way I go. Ugh.  My legs were toast but I did a mile in 9:25.  It's funny, they felt like they were moving soooo slowly, but that made me go faster. I'll have to be careful of that on Sunday, but the ride is only 10 miles with one normal hill.  So, long story short, a great confidence builder brick!!

Geez, you guys have added six or seven pages since I last saw.  I need to take that Evelyn Woods Speed reading course or something...

Congrats on you HM Claire!

I'm lying in bad as a type this all banged up.  It was an eventful weekend.

Saturday started off with a 5K, I PR'd, ran a 21:02 gun time but my chip time was something like 20:36 so I'm creeping in on that sub 20 min. 5K.  I'm really happy about my times as this course had 212 feet of climbing which is a lot for a 5K.  The last 1/2 mile is a cat 5 climb all the way to the finish.  It was only 72 degrees but 85% humidity so given the conditions I am very happy about the results.

Then I ran back to my car, drove home, got picked up by my friend Frank and we headed to Lawrence to ride the IMKS 70.3 bike course.  The plan was to also run one lap of the run course (6.5 miles).  We got pulled over by park ranger guy for speeding!  He said in a very stern voice, "I got you going 52", he appeared quite upset.  It was in a part of the park where there were no people around.  Just grass fields on both sides, that road is just there to go from one part of the park to another.  Nevertheless, we were speeding and deserved to take the medicine.  But good lord, I think park ranger guy was writing his first ticket.  Took forever in his car, then came back, fumbled around a bit, then forgot my friends license/registration back in the patrol vehicle.  He ended up writing us up for 40 mph so I guess we got a break.

So now we're late, the agreed meet time was 11:00, we got there 11:20 ish, we didn't head out until 11:30 and now it's hot.  It got to over 90 degrees and humidity was still high.  THere are no stops along the course to get water.  I had one 24 oz bottle and one 20 oz bottle, that's it.  Most of us had two bottles but Jon had a speedfill bottle on the frame, a torpedo mounted bottle on the aerobars and TWO more bottles on the saddle.  Smart Man!  I had a good ride.  I rationed my water well, I barely had enough to get back.  Jon ended up sharing his water with a few others, and my friend Pete, who normally crushes me on the bike, was falling back as he ran out of water.  We all made it back, Pete had to lie down on the way home.

What I learned from this was that hydration for a day like this starts a day or two before.  I knew that day could be difficult so I made sure and got plenty of liquids in my starting Thursday night and all day Friday.  Three of the guys on this bike ride are better athletes than I but I ended up pulling away from them at the end and I was only at about 80% effort.

So that was the good part of the weekend, now the not so good.  Did the Tour de Hope Bike Tour in Kansas City yesterday which was supposed to be 62 miles with 4 additional miles of climbiing to get the king of the mountain cup.  A few of my friends were doing the 35 mile route so I didn't know many people there at the start.  I saw what looked like some good cyclists and asked them if they were doing the KOM climbs, they said yes so my plan was to follow them.  So off we go and I end up hanging with the lead group and we're moving pretty good, averaging around 20 mph or so.  We pass the first 3 SAG stops then is starts to rain!  It's not bad at first so we keep going.  We complete 3 of the 5 KOM climbs then we're going downhill in downtown K.C., I'm squeezing the brakes some because it's wet so I wasn't going too fast I thought....then BAM, I hit a pothole which I didn't see because of the water.  I go down, I land on my right hip, I slide for at least 50 feet.  The guy behind me was glad I slid, otherwise he would have run into me.

I've got road rash, a bruised hip, bruised shoulder, nothing appear to be broken, I'm just lying in bed now tryinig to heal up, contimplating going to the doctor.  I'm not in pain as I lay here, but when I walk, I feel and leg/hip pain on my right side so it's difficult to walk.

My bike, amazingly enough, is pretty much unscathed

My next race is May 20th, not sure if I'll be in shape for that.

Speaking of Pop Tarts, last night I had a sweet tooth so I asked my daughter if there was any Pop Tarts left from the Huge box of 48 I bought just a few weeks ago.  Sorry Dad, none left