Depression and Moods- Check in! (Page 11)

Good luck!  Let me know how things are going!

Glad I caught this thread.  I have a lot of the symptoms you mentioned, but I choose to think that it's because of the following:

1). I'm a "perfectionist" and never happy unless it's done correctly (well, what I believe anyways).

2). Everyday, dull routine stuff and getting bored with it.

3). My body chemistry has changed because of my getting older, therefore, what I used to like and not have issues with are now changed.  (ex. I despised mustard, but now like a little of it on my brats and hotdogs).

4). My kids wear me out.

5). Not getting good sleep because of my bed.

6). Years of playing v-ball and some running wore down my body some.

Maybe I should check-in to the doctor and get a FULL physical.

I am not on medication but think I need to be on something.  I have been really down lately and keep sinking down further.  Work isn't going well and my personal life is probably the worst it's ever been.  It doesn't help that my sorry excuse for an ex-husband has supposedly found the love of his life and I'm still alone.  There are days when I just want to run away to a new place and start all over.  I know, I know.  That never solves anything.  Knee problems have kept me from working out and anytime I think it would be ok to work out, the depression takes hold and won't let go.

Is there anyone out there that actually goes to a counselor or someone similar?  I had a very bad experience once with a psychologist and am wary about going back to someone else.  And if I decide to go to one, how do I find a good one that is covered by my insurance?

Here is my two cents.  I go to a therapist and it helps.  I also take some meds.  I prefer the combination.  You need someone to talk to who can get you in the right direction.  It has taken me a long time to find the right therapist but I did.  I found her through my insurance website, it was relative easy.  It would be nice if you could get a couple trial visits to see how you like your therapists but apparently that wouldn't work too well for the insurance companies.  Remember the therapists work for you, if you feel like it is not working go to another one.

It's proven that exercise helps with depression so try to break through and get a good workout.  Just do something.  Sometimes I do not take my own advice and I end up paying the price.   F*** your ex, he is your ex for a reason and is probably just saying that to get at you.  If he has found someone great, good for you, now it is someone else's problem.

Good luck and keep plugging away.  Depression sucks but there are plenty of people here at BT and elsewhere to help you through it!

It's been a while since I've posted here - or anywhere on BT for that matter - but still follow this thread and thought I'd give a quick checkin.

As a quick summary, I'd battled depression since childhood - though I didn't understand it at the time. Then in 2004 my world came totally unglued between my wife being diagnosed with cancer and a business partner stealing from me and destroying our company. At this time one year ago, I was unemployed, fighting to keep my house, had been caring for my terminally ill wife, and on July 5 was told they were stopping treatment. July 21 will mark 1 year since she died (there's a thread here with the subject "my wife died today"). I had been through a severe 3-year depression that was being managed by medication and counseling. To say life was hard is an understatement.

Today, I am free of medication and counseling, and gainfully employed. I still have meds on standby just in case, but weened myself off of one of them about 6 months ago and the other about 2 months ago. I've dated several women, and have met one who seems to be "the one". My 3 kids (13, 11 and 9) are doing well with the loss of their mom. They thrived in school and are looking forward to upcoming races - they are triathletes too.

I say this to hopefully give you hope. I know what it's like to be in the pit. I remember telling a friend that I'd rather die and go to hell than to feel like I felt. Hell seemed better. But, you can and will get through your challenges. Some days, just getting out of bed is a victory. If so, then celebrate that. You will have down moments and down days - I still do. You don't have to have a down or sad life. Keep fighting for the future. Your best days are ahead.