Depression and Moods- Check in! (Page 12)

Silver_wlf - 2009-07-25 7:37 AM Check in.  I'm racing next weekend (HIM) and I haven't been able to sleep since Tuesday.  Which is affecting my mood.  Plus it's grey and gross outside and I left my shoes at the Computrainer (an hour away) so I have to drive BACK to go get them.

I know I'm wallowing and that I need to give myself a chain rattle...  How's everyone else doing?

Reno8 - 2009-07-25 9:48 AM

You are going to do awesome in your race...and riding back to get your shoes in a minor bump in the road.  Use some of that time to mentally prepare for your race and maybe that will help clear the head for some great rest during your taper week.

I have been doing better this month than in a long while and I thinks it relates directly to training.  I was going to bail on a HIM in Sept. but I got talked back into it by my trainng partner and have only missed 1 day of scheduled training since 7/5.

I really feel good about this since I am in the beginning stages of a divorce (after 35 years) and over the next few months that will happen along with the accompaning events such as moving out.  I don't have any other "family" (bro/sis Mom/Dad etc.) so there is really no one to talk to except for a few friends and some cyber freinds here on BT.  The BT'ers are some of the best people in the world and we have come to rely on each other for inspires and phone chats.

The holidays have been a hard time for me for a few years and this year I REALLY hopw to be able to train right through them.

Everyone keep checking back here and updating on how you are doing.


Steve

phoenixazul - 2009-08-06 9:37 AM Hi all. Hope everyone is well. Been having a bad go of it lately. On one hand, my hip is healed now and I can walk on my own power. It feels great. And then I had a phone call for an interview at a place I intern at, and I was so happy, so so so happy. And then the interview went really well. And then they checked my references, and they all told me they gave me good ones. And then they hired someone else. So I have to sit at my desk, working on a big project, getting paid $0, while everyone fawns over the new girl (I had to sit through a 15 minute conversation across the cubes about how great and pretty she is...and then I went and hid in the bathroom). It hurt, I'm not going to lie. I've had another line on another job. I networked my butt off, got a personal reference from someone senior in the organization, did everything I'm "supposed" to do. I called to follow up on the rec, only to be told that they had offered the job to someone already. Then take the job off the internet, hm?! It was another huge blow. I know they mean well, but my mom and husband telling me "why don't you just go work at the grocery store?" or "why don't you just join a temp agency" (because temp agencies are overwhelmed and they told me I'm overqualified, that's why). Because apparently, despite my work and education, I'm still just some putz from Pittsburgh who is only good enough to work for minimum wage. I'm so sick of the "maybe you're just meant to do something else". Well what the heck else can I do? I've applied for everything under the sun, and nothing. At some point this has to be about them not liking me as a person, at least on paper. I know , I know, your job doesn't define you, but it does. And I'm so bloody sick of people (including on BT) talking about how the unemployed are lazy, and could "get jobs if they really wanted them" or "why don't you just move to a better market" (because it COSTS MONEY to move!) or "You have a cell phone! You should get rid of your cellphone and IpodShuffle and TV and everything you own! You're chosing to participate in recession" (yes, I don't need that phone, because I'm sure they'll send a carrier pigeon to send my rejection notice, my shuffle is 3 years old and was a christmas gift, our TV was also a gift, and yes, of course, how can I be so BLIND! I chose to be out of work for 9 months, why do I even bother sending 15+ applications a week!). I want to kick those people in the shins and put bubble solution in their gas tank. The economy sucks, and there's absolutely FA I can do about it. I'm bloody trying. Sorry, I'm sorry. I'm a big bloody rain cloud today. Crab apple, even. Last night was fun though, got to go out with my mom and SIL and eat ourselves silly at a benefit for the Humane Society. There was puppy cuddling involved .