Depression and Moods- Check in! (Page 25)

it is so hard when the moods of others affect our own - I am very sensitive to the emotions of others and that can send me for a real spin - so sorry you are going through this.

Pregnancy brings it's own hormone soup that can really whallop a woman's emotional state. Try to give her a lot of leeway there, and just keep breathing, maybe encourage her to just take a walk with you sometimes, no talking needed. Just moving will help I bet.

And also, have her talk with her doc about meds. There are a lot of mama's I know who were able to continue antidepressant/anxiety meds in pg without any harm to baby. I think zoloft is the one I have read about the most, but again check with the doc.

GOOD LUCK! Before you know it the pg will be over and you will have a new baby to play with and snuggle (and hand back when it poops - lol)

Also keep in mind that, while I'm sure she's ecstatic for the arrival of her child, she may not be enjoying the pregnancy phase of that all that much. For some women, pregnancy is 9 long months of discomfort, irritation, worry, stress and pain. She may just be having a long, bad, hormonal day. Try not to hold it against her or be too upset by it.

I've been having some up days and some down days...today is a down day.  I am a little bit sick...body aches, no appetite, mild fever and headache.

I am having issues with the gal whose house I am staying in (Mary).  She wants to help me live my life.  She means well, but it is my life, not hers.  It is time to find a new place to stay. 

I am undecided whether or not to take classes summer quarter - it starts tomorrow.  I had to take an incomplete in one of my classes last quarter and so still will be on academic probation/no financial aid.  It just feels like I am giving up if I take a quarter off...at least that is what Mary keeps telling me.  She wants to pay for summer quarter, but I think it is a bad idea to take her up on that offer.  I really don't have any money though, and if I am going to start paying rent again...

Anyway, I can't deal with the added stress I get from my well meaning, but overbearing housemate. 

Now I just need to get the guts to tell her that I won't be taking her up on her offer, probably not taking any classes, and...oh yah...I am moving out too.  She expects to hear from me this evening about what classes I've registered for.

It isn't going to be a pretty conversation...how do I respectfully end it when she is going to have so many 'insights' on the matter?

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Hey everyone!  I realized I haven't checked in with this thread in a long time... in fact my bookmark was to the old thread before this one...  I'm happy to report that I'm doing pretty decent lately.  My bipolar is under control, and I've actually gotten up enough motivation to start exercising again -- and also continue losing weight!  (I'm down to 192, which is the lightest I've been in over 10 years... )

But I also want to direct you all to a newcomer who's really struggling, and who I think could really use some encouragement:

http://www.beginnertriathlete.com/discussion/forums/thread-view.asp?tid=212455

I directed him to this thread, so hopefully he'll find it and come introduce himself. 

Of course, no sooner than I said I was doing well, I hit a hole this past weekend.  My 19-year-old cat Casper got sick suddenly and really deteriorated over the course of 4 days.  I had to make the agonizing decision to have him put to sleep on Monday.  Of course I've been a nervous wreck and my moods have been all over the place... how do you say goodbye to a steadfast buddy of 19 years?  And no matter how much I know it was the "right" thing to do to put him to sleep, I still feel partly like I betrayed him. 

My OCD makes it worse too... makes me second-guess decisions I've made, or spotlight the times when I didn't spend enough time with him, etc. etc.

Anyway, thanks for letting me chat a bit, it helps to vent.  I know I'll be OK, but it's going to be a slow process.  I can't bring myself yet to remove some of his items, like his litterbox or food/water bowls.  I'm gonna miss him. 

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Love never dies.

I'm so sorry.

So sorry to hear this.  It all takes time and will work itself out.  Your cat was lucky you cared so deeply.  We are hear for you, hang in there!

 I understand that one completely. We're thinking about you.

My thoughts are with you too.  You lost a member of the family, it's hard.  I hope over time you will have nothing but great memories!

I'm really sorry to hear about your cat  sincere condolences

Being bipolar really really sucks.  I can't seem to stay stable for more than a couple weeks at a time...making it a month is a good spell.   I have been such a wreck for the last couple of months and I just keep getting worse.  I am so sick and tired of it.  I spend more time every day is a emotional wreck than functional.  I envy those who don't have to deal with mental illness.  And I hate that so many people don't understand that it is a disease, not just me being choosing to be moody and have a poor attitude. I am at the point when I just want to smack people that tell me that I just need to make more of an effort, if I try harder I can overcome it, that medications aren't necessary and that I should work towards getting off them.

k, rant over...for the moment at least.

Nobody gets it but us.  thats why we are here.  Sorry to hear things are not so good right now, but you know you always have people who understand right here!!!!!!

Hang in there!

Edited by ChicagoMan65 2010-07-15 5:15 PM

I raised one of my meds on thursday that seems to be helping, but on saturday later I started breaking out in a rash...and it is getting worse.  There haven't been any other changes in my life besides the med increase (laundry soaps, skin products, exposure to allergens, diet changes, etc) so I think that it is related to the med change...this sucks.  I am going to call the doctor tomorrow and let him know.  I will most likely have to lower the medication again.  Hopefully I don't have to drop it entirely now.

^^ This is going to sound weird, but have you had any great anxiety inducing event in the last few days? Bought a car/other big purchase? Ended a relationship? Ridiculously tough deadline at work? One of my curiosities is breaking out in hives when one of those things happens. I was absolutely covered in them when I had to leave Scotland, the night before my wedding, when I thought I lost my passport (ps, always check the back pocket!). Don't know if that's you, but thought I'd throw that out there. Sorry your meds have been such a PITA.

I was recommended to come here by bipolartotripolar, so here I am.  I'm bipolar and was aspiring to be a professional triathlete and I had the results to get there. I am trying to cope with the ups and downs, the ins and outs, of never being able to commit to training schedules. I won't and moan any more though about it, I just am frustrated now since I had a crap swim yesterday and a crap bike this AM, neither of which I finished because I just didn't have the energy. There was a time when I would get this stuff done, now when I get into a mixed state I get extremely agitated during workouts and have to stop.

Does this ever happen to you guys?

Oh and also I wanted to quit triathlon this morning and run away from everyone, almost threw my bike over the side of my house. And I yelled at my dog and refused to sleep in bed with my wife last night because I was angry even thoug I didn't know why. So fu#($(# sick of this! At least I'm taking my meds.  Anyway. Racing this weekend. Pissed that I can't seem to get it together.

AAARRGGGH. Frustrated.

Hi everyone!  I haven't stopped in in awhile, but I thought I'd drop by and say hi.  I've been on the meds consistently for a few months now.  I finally feel like I'm over the side effects.  The nausea was so bad for awhile that I stopped.  Of course, when I restarted, it was just as bad.  This time I stuck through and I'm doing well on them.  So far, no real jittery-ness or anything else bad, so that's an improvement.

Not sure I notice much difference in how I feel or act.  I've been less hungry and lost some weight, so that's a plus.  I guess I have a little more energy and motivation.  I actually went through my closet last weekend and cleared out the clothes that don't fit and the ones I just won't wear any more.  Wasn't a big thing, but it was kind of a big step for me.  Something I've wanted to do for awhile, but couldn't get up the will to do.  Small steps make it worth it. 

Hey everbody, just stopped by for a little whine!!  I have a tri tomorrow and I don't want to do it.  99.9% of the people on this site would tell me to HTFU.  Which, I guess, I probably should but like everything in my life I am a little hesitant about.  There is this unbelievably loud voice in my head that says I am going to fail!  That since my swimming sucks, I will drown in Lake Michigan.  Now there is a pretty good choice I won't but nonetheless I will end up looking like a failure.  I like tris, not good at them, but I like the feeling of the effort but I am incredibly scared (not nervous) before each and every one.   My head and heart are starting to tell me to quit!  Before I even try.   Jesus, I got to get off here before I bum myself and everyone else more.  Thanks for listening or reading!

Hey TM:  The highlighted part says it all....you can't "fail" if you like the feeling you get from the experience.  Success is judged by the individual...that means you and if you enjoy the feeling then go and have that experience.  Your only failure is cheating yourself out of the experience.

As a Coach (not a Tri Coach) I see people/competitors get "scared and nervous" before every competition.....so I say what you are feeling is normal and not failing.

Really hope you decide to go to the race and compete....good luck to you.

Hey TeddieMao

Being a little nervous is a great thing, and asking here for some encouragement is the absolute right thing to do. If you really had decided to not take part, you might have kept that to yourself, but asking here, well, now you will toe that start-line knowing that there are friends here cheering and wishing you a great day!

As Reno8 pointed out, participation is winning, overcoming that insipid draining self-doubt is success!! The feeling that you will have once you cross the start-line and work your way through to the finish is what it is all about.

best of luck my friend...

waiting for your race report....

kelly

Thank you everyone for your kindness.  Just a bad day, I guess.  I ended up doing the tri (report will come later).  Thanks to your support and my wife's goading, I got out of bed at 4:30 and drove in the rain to the tri.  It wasn't my best but I did it and I get a great deal of satisfaction out of that!  Your support and understanding mean a lot to me.  This Big D is a real pain in my sometimes!   It is nice to know that you are not alone!!!  Thanks aqain and again and again!!!

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Glad you had a great time.