Was gonna post about a bad swim workout but it's worse

Ok so today I had a bad swim workout, no big deal, my mind was other places. Last week on thur a guy at work committed suicide. I didn't really know the guy because he works in a different building, but I did sit by him most weeks in staff meeting. I found out thur he died, but didn't find out it was suicide until this morning. I thought the cirmcumstances were weird and his wife's postings on fb were out of the norm so I suspected something like that. If its a heart attack or cancer or whatever usually you will here right away, but when they say the family doesnt want to release the info then it gets you wonderingAnyway even though I don't really know the guy I have been thinking about it slot, I don't get how someone can do such a thing. Especially this guy, he was always going out of his way to help everyone and make sure things are done right, and everyone is taking care of. He did a lot of volunteering and would go out of his way to help anyone.. Sure since I don't really know him anything could be going on behind the scenes. It strikes me as tough though and I feel for his family, a wife and two kids around 9 and 13.So that's what I though about during my swim today, that coupled with a and day at work, a tough squadron pt session before my swim, I didn't complete the workout and will reengage tomorrowThen I come home to find out a guy from my church back home was killed In a car accident this morning, I've know him for a long as I can remember from my youth etc, always a super nice guy and I talked to him probably every week I went to church until I moved away. I would still talk to him when I would see him around town when I was home visiting, always a super nice guy and the father to 3 (I think) kids all probably under the age of 13 and husband who been married probably 15 or so years. He lived about 5 houses up the street from my wife's parents.Its a small town of about 6000 and him being an ATA instusctor everyone knew him.So a rough patch for me, I'm sure I'll have this on my mind for a very long time.So here to you Heath and ATA RON (his license plate)You will be missed