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 2010-12-25 3:25 AM in reply to: #1319576 |
Extreme Veteran  1175    Langley, BC, 'Wet Coast' Canada |  Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in!I just wanted to check in, to ask how everyone has been doing... I know that this time of year can be especially stressful for many, and want everyone to know that there is hope!! Things for me have been going fairly well, and I want to pass along some of that good ju-ju  |
| 2010-12-25 1:50 PM in reply to: #3261027 |
Melon Presser 52116  | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! triosaurus - 2010-12-25 4:25 PM I just wanted to check in, to ask how everyone has been doing... I know that this time of year can be especially stressful for many, and want everyone to know that there is hope!! Things for me have been going fairly well, and I want to pass along some of that good ju-ju hi-hi, ju-ju, and Merry Christmas to you Inside it's wonderful. I'm my own tropical beach Times with the family have been good insofar as ... uh ... well ... all my one-on-one time with family members has been great!!! [one tries to look at the positive side and know that one can only tend one's own garden!] It's been extremely painful to be caught in the middle of some interactions, though, that deep, primal soul-pain that only your nearest and dearest can incite. But here's the joy--I know the pain ain't gonna last forever, and it ain't my bloody pain anyway. |
| 2010-12-25 8:17 PM in reply to: #1319576 |
Elite 3067 Cheesehead, WI | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! Yanti - you hit the nail on the head, ---"But here's the joy--I know the pain ain't gonna last forever," Amen to that! |
| 2011-01-04 11:48 AM in reply to: #1319576 |
Veteran 139 | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! Hope you all made it through the holidays ok. I am struggling now...I'm working on my fifth UTI in 8 wks, plus the heat stroke still is keeping me down. I'm bone-exhausted, and was strung out after 2 wks at home w/my 2yo and 4yo boys, who are in a dandy stage of beating the crap out of each other. I adored every minute--and couldn't believe how exhausted I was/am, from the illnesses. I tried to run--did 7 minutes two days in a row, rested one day, then after a 5-min run the next day I was DOWN for the rest of the day and that deep horrible weariness in my body still is present. So tired of it. So beaten-down. |
| 2011-01-04 3:45 PM in reply to: #3276863 |
Melon Presser 52116 | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! JoseyWales - 2011-01-05 12:48 AM Hope you all made it through the holidays ok. I am struggling now...I'm working on my fifth UTI in 8 wks, plus the heat stroke still is keeping me down. I'm bone-exhausted, and was strung out after 2 wks at home w/my 2yo and 4yo boys, who are in a dandy stage of beating the crap out of each other. I adored every minute--and couldn't believe how exhausted I was/am, from the illnesses. I tried to run--did 7 minutes two days in a row, rested one day, then after a 5-min run the next day I was DOWN for the rest of the day and that deep horrible weariness in my body still is present. So tired of it. So beaten-down. you've taken a helluva beating ... and the boys beating each other up doesn't help either! take it easy on yourself. i'd walk, instead of run. tea. |
| 2011-01-05 11:13 PM in reply to: #1319576 |
Alpharetta, Georgia Bronze member | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! I'm reluctant to post in here but here goes. I've been having a hard time lately. Well, since about March of this year when I suddenly found myself single (after 10+ years of long term relationships). I fully embraced Ironman training over the summer - thank goodness for something to keep me occupied - and also embraced the fun-ness of being single. Maybe a little too much. I go to work, I do fun things, I work out. I'm usually the one laughing and dancing and having a great time. But when I get in the car alone, drive home alone, and finally breathe in the quiet of my house... it hits me like a ton of bricks. I'm so sad. I've been in an "I just don't care" phase for awhile, regarding my personal life. Seems it caught up to me over the holiday a little. I don't seem to have a good grasp of my alcoholic limits, and in turn acted ridiculously. Probably cost me a friend in the end. Which makes me so sad. Exercise helps - it's what I've turned to for years. It's the reason I signed up for another Ironman.. I couldn't stomach the idea of not having a huge event to pour all of my energy in to, and how it would magnify my lonliness. Now I think I've injured my leg and won't be able to run for awhile - and my February 50K is in jeopardy. You can probably guess how that makes me feel. It's hard to admit to all of this. |
| 2011-01-06 1:37 PM in reply to: #3281236 |
Pro 3932 Irvine, California | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! Happy New Year, Everyone! Are you all happy the holidays are over? I know I am. Thankfully, I had family visiting, so I didn't have much time to get all moody, which is what typically happens... Overall, I'm pretty stable lately, though there are always bumps in the road. A couple weeks ago I tried coming off one med I take, in the hopes that my slight hand tremor would subside. It was probably just withdrawal symptoms, but man was I ever cranky and depressed. Took me awhile to connect the dots. It's actually one of my biggest struggles -- figuring out if something I'm feeling is justified given the circumstances in my life, or if it's just my bipolar crapola kicking in. Very hard to tease them apart. Becca, I'm sorry to hear you're still struggling. I can only imagine how much more difficult it is with kids running around. I don't have much to offer, other than a hug and some words of encouragement -- things will improve, though it's usually never as fast as we want. Try to stay strong. Lisa, I'm sorry to hear of your sadness too, and I commend you for admitting it. Obviously, I don't know you, but it sounds like you are maybe still grieving from your loss? We're all different, but if you were really close to someone for a long time (multiple years), it's going to take awhile to process the grief I think. I hope you start feeling better soon! |
| 2011-01-13 9:28 AM in reply to: #1319576 |
Elite 2729 Puyallup, WA | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! So maybe I'm a bit pre-mature in posting...but I feel like we know our bodies just as well. I think I've discovered that it's not depression I have, but bipolar. I was fairly familiar with bipolar was, but not too familiar with the "not as extreme" manic phase called hypomania. I found this article, "Understanding Hypomania: Energies Bop, Inhibitions Drop, Ideas Pop" The title sums it up...it's a change from my normal depressive state. I've kind of enjoyed it...I have more energy and have lots of ideas! Well it turns out...that's not me "being normal"... :-( I went to see my meds-management nurse practitioner on Tuesday and she was the one that brought it up 2 months ago. Saying that a lot of people who have bipolar don't realize it. I was like...nooo...I don't think I have it, I'm depressed: sleep a LOT, sad, etc. So I went back on medicines and it finally hit me the night I only got 4 hours of sleep. I've been this way before...just not all the time. So when I went on Tuesday she was like, do you think you have it? I said, I think there is a possibility. She said ok, let's change your meds. It seemed REALLY anticlimactic to me. Like shouldn't there be some time to talk about what it means?? BUT...that's not what she does. She is a meds vendor....so I made an appt. somewhere else to get therapy AND meds management. Part of me is scared, part of me is relieved. Maybe "we've" been trying to fix the wrong thing. Part of me is mad - at myself and at the doctors I've been seeing for the last 10 years for never mentioning it to me!!! This is what the seroquel website said: "The symptoms of major depressive disorder, also called depression, are similar to the symptoms of bipolar depression. In a national survey, more than two-thirds of people with bipolar disorder were originally misdiagnosed with other disorders. And over one-third of people with bipolar disorder who were originally misdiagnosed waited 10 years or more before receiving an accurate diagnosis." Granted, I realize this MAY be propaganda by the drug company...but if it's remotely true (and I'm guessing it is...) - wow! |
| 2011-01-13 9:10 PM in reply to: #1319576 |
Pro 4189 Pittsburgh, my heart is in Glasgow | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! Well, we're deep into the winter now...how's everyone holding up? The weather seems to be a big factor for a lot of us, me included. The good: My job is awesome. I'm finally doing what I dreamed of doing. My coworkers are fantastic. The tough: Being home for Christmas was rough. Well, no scratch that, being home for Christmas was AWESOME, it is the coming back to OKC without Pat that sucks. I had to make the move out to OK with out my husband...I couldn't wait any longer to get my first professional job, and his job makes a lot more money than I ever will...so this is the solution we're up against. I don't really know a lot of people out here, aside from my coworkers, and I'm sure after 8 hrs, they've had enough. I also don't have a car so it is hard for me to, say go to the mall and be around people or to go for a drive and just get the hell out of my apartment. My apartment is in a shady part of town (had to rent it without seeing it because of how suddenly I had to move). I just feel isolated and kind of alone and sad most of the time. I put stupid things on my laptop just to have a little sound in my apartment. I wish I could get a dog to keep me company, but I don't have enough cash for a pet deposit in any place that I could rent. We're thinking about getting me a car soon, and that is really screwing with my emotions. That seems silly because it is just a car, right? We're done paying on Pat's car as of this month (hooray!). But it just feels like such a huge burden, and when I think about that kind of money, just like when I think about my school loans, my brain just goes haywire. It really will set me off and upset me for weeks, because I just think about all this money that I owe and will never see, it feels like this albatross around my neck that I will never be able to conquer, that I'll always be poor and destitute. I have a real fear of being homeless, and I think spending large sums like that really tips that fear for me. Ugh...but then I think about how nice a car would be to go places and to be able to volunteer or even just go grocery shopping without being a burden. |
| 2011-01-19 10:09 AM in reply to: #3281236 |
Elite 3770 | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! lisac957 - 2011-01-05 11:13 PM I'm reluctant to post in here but here goes. I've been having a hard time lately. Well, since about March of this year when I suddenly found myself single (after 10+ years of long term relationships). I fully embraced Ironman training over the summer - thank goodness for something to keep me occupied - and also embraced the fun-ness of being single. Maybe a little too much. I go to work, I do fun things, I work out. I'm usually the one laughing and dancing and having a great time. But when I get in the car alone, drive home alone, and finally breathe in the quiet of my house... it hits me like a ton of bricks. I'm so sad. I've been in an "I just don't care" phase for awhile, regarding my personal life. Seems it caught up to me over the holiday a little. I don't seem to have a good grasp of my alcoholic limits, and in turn acted ridiculously. Probably cost me a friend in the end. Which makes me so sad. Exercise helps - it's what I've turned to for years. It's the reason I signed up for another Ironman.. I couldn't stomach the idea of not having a huge event to pour all of my energy in to, and how it would magnify my lonliness. Now I think I've injured my leg and won't be able to run for awhile - and my February 50K is in jeopardy. You can probably guess how that makes me feel. It's hard to admit to all of this. I get it. I haven't posted on this before, but I go through my bouts. Training is how we get through it. I was suddenly single in January last year, embraced my IM year, and now this year, I'm just injured. Its hard when you lose your outlet. |
| 2011-01-23 3:13 PM in reply to: #1319576 |
| Veteran 181 | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! Might as well check in. I rarely post but can't hurt. Last couple weeks have just sucked. I have bipolar 2 and it's been under control for a while but not lately - since my ACL surgery on Dec. 16th but particularly the last two weeks. Obviously the lack of training is messing with my ability to handle stress and anxiety but it's feeling like more than just that. I've become absolutely indifferent to everything... school: I already have a B.A. but am going to culinary school as a post-grad/one year program. I don't like school to begin with but I can't get a job. Everyday I go to class I lose more and more interest in the food service industry (even before my surgery/bouts of bummedness). No good. I can swim in two weeks so that will help but right now I stare at my brand new B16 and just don't care. I do my physical therapy as I should and I go to the gym in the mornings but I'm just not feeling it. I rode the trainer for an hour Friday but didn't enjoy it, as I'm just not really enjoying anything right now. I see a new psychiatrist on Thursday (I moved so I can't see my old one) so hopefully a fix in medicine will help but good God this is annoying. Constantly bummed sucks. |
| 2011-01-24 7:37 AM in reply to: #3316554 |
Elite 2729 Puyallup, WA | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! SammyKarch - 2011-01-23 3:13 PM Might as well check in. I rarely post but can't hurt. Last couple weeks have just sucked. I have bipolar 2 and it's been under control for a while but not lately - since my ACL surgery on Dec. 16th but particularly the last two weeks. Obviously the lack of training is messing with my ability to handle stress and anxiety but it's feeling like more than just that. I've become absolutely indifferent to everything... school: I already have a B.A. but am going to culinary school as a post-grad/one year program. I don't like school to begin with but I can't get a job. Everyday I go to class I lose more and more interest in the food service industry (even before my surgery/bouts of bummedness). No good. I can swim in two weeks so that will help but right now I stare at my brand new B16 and just don't care. I do my physical therapy as I should and I go to the gym in the mornings but I'm just not feeling it. I rode the trainer for an hour Friday but didn't enjoy it, as I'm just not really enjoying anything right now. I see a new psychiatrist on Thursday (I moved so I can't see my old one) so hopefully a fix in medicine will help but good God this is annoying. Constantly bummed sucks. It sounds to me your meds need adjusting...but I know that is never immediate. Even if you could IMMEDIATELY get into see a doctor or nurse, the changes aren't immediate. As Yanti said recently...(paraphrasing) the life sucking energy/draining/hating life/miserableness doesn't last forever :-/ (Half-joke: Especially with bipolar! Bad joke?!?!?) |
| 2011-01-24 7:43 AM in reply to: #1319576 |
Elite 2729 Puyallup, WA | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! I have my first appt. today with a new therapist. This therapist could lead to someone who will manage medication too. I'm not sure when the "official" diagnosis of bipolar comes....assuming that is what it is...and I'm pretty convinced it is. I also hope that I like the therapist, etc. I realized I'm kind of worried about it :-/ Thoughts and prayers would be appreciated this afternoon! |
| 2011-01-24 11:40 AM in reply to: #3317535 |
Expert 1158 Chicagoland | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! lkct01234 - 2011-01-24 7:43 AM I have my first appt. today with a new therapist. This therapist could lead to someone who will manage medication too. I'm not sure when the "official" diagnosis of bipolar comes....assuming that is what it is...and I'm pretty convinced it is. I also hope that I like the therapist, etc. I realized I'm kind of worried about it :-/ Thoughts and prayers would be appreciated this afternoon! Good luck Lisa! I am on this new homeopathic stuff and, to be quite honest, it ain't working! I really really really don't want to go on the pharmaceuticals but that may be happening. I am hoping that the cognitive therapy can more than compensate for it. Who knows. It is extremely frustrating. |
| 2011-01-24 3:20 PM in reply to: #3317522 |
| Veteran 181 | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! It sounds to me your meds need adjusting...but I know that is never immediate. Even if you could IMMEDIATELY get into see a doctor or nurse, the changes aren't immediate. As Yanti said recently...(paraphrasing) the life sucking energy/draining/hating life/miserableness doesn't last forever :-/ (Half-joke: Especially with bipolar! Bad joke?!?!?) A joke is a joke... and appreciated  I'm going to the local bike store to spin with the local tri-club tonight. Hopefully that'll help bring some energy to my workouts/life in general. My main problem the last few weeks, though I forgot to mention it, has been this incredible anxiety. Every situation I encounter makes me feel anxious, like everything's going to go wrong. Really weird. Good luck with your appointment. Hope it goes well. Edited by SammyKarch 2011-01-24 3:23 PM |
| 2011-01-24 7:28 PM in reply to: #3318865 |
| Veteran 181 | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! SammyKarch - 2011-01-24 4:20 PM It sounds to me your meds need adjusting...but I know that is never immediate. Even if you could IMMEDIATELY get into see a doctor or nurse, the changes aren't immediate. As Yanti said recently...(paraphrasing) the life sucking energy/draining/hating life/miserableness doesn't last forever :-/ (Half-joke: Especially with bipolar! Bad joke?!?!?) A joke is a joke... and appreciated I'm going to the local bike store to spin with the local tri-club tonight. Hopefully that'll help bring some energy to my workouts/life in general. My main problem the last few weeks, though I forgot to mention it, has been this incredible anxiety. Every situation I encounter makes me feel anxious, like everything's going to go wrong. Really weird. Good luck with your appointment. Hope it goes well. and the spin sesh really helped! I'm in a great mood right now. |
| 2011-01-24 10:56 PM in reply to: #3317535 |
Expert 1690 | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! lkct01234 - 2011-01-24 8:43 AM I have my first appt. today with a new therapist. This therapist could lead to someone who will manage medication too. I'm not sure when the "official" diagnosis of bipolar comes....assuming that is what it is...and I'm pretty convinced it is. I also hope that I like the therapist, etc. I realized I'm kind of worried about it :-/ Thoughts and prayers would be appreciated this afternoon! dont be scared, it was a huge relief actually when i was diagnosed after 15+ years of anti depressants with little success. I did try cognitive behavioral therapy for about 6 weeks and found it very unhelpful. When you are depressed without reason and have strange reactions to things normally trying to rewire or address a cause didnt turn out to be very helpful. I hope you have alot more luck. As for me in still struggling very much with PF, i can only bike or run 3x a week for a very short period of time. This doesnt work out well weight wise because i still eat like im training 10hrs+ a week. |
| 2011-01-26 10:32 AM in reply to: #1319576 |
Elite 2729 Puyallup, WA | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! So my appt. on Monday was good...and bad. Of course she isn't able to diagnose me - on her own and only after talking to me for an hour. But she did say it does sound like it's Bipolar 2. She did seem to indicate it's more depression...but I don't think her nor I can deny the change I've been feeling lately. The good: She seemed intelligent and aware. We made another appt. in a week. The bad: She said I probably won't be able to get into the medication management part for about 6 weeks. So I will have to go back to my other "drug pusher". She also told me that every time I have a beer, or other alcohol, it's like chucking the medication for the day or a period of time. My drinking has been up in the last month (a sign of hypomania) and the thought of not being able to drink is very bothersome. Last night I wanted a beer...I had a Diet Root Beer and more candy than I needed. (Bad coping skills = check!) So a question for everyone...what is your take on alcohol and meds? I know that adding a depressive into the system for someone who is not balanced is probably not good. But I guess I never realized how bad A drink could be. I did learn recently (a few years) that alcohol is processed differently by those who have a pre-disposition of alcoholism...and I think that would be me. Of course my hubby is supportive. He is amazingly supportive of everything and anything I do. That is huge and I don't know what I'd do without him. |
| 2011-01-26 10:35 AM in reply to: #3318213 |
Elite 2729 Puyallup, WA | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! TeddieMao - 2011-01-24 11:40 AM Good luck Lisa! I am on this new homeopathic stuff and, to be quite honest, it ain't working! I really really really don't want to go on the pharmaceuticals but that may be happening. I am hoping that the cognitive therapy can more than compensate for it. Who knows. It is extremely frustrating. Thanks for the well wishes Muddy Buddy!! I can't say I'm supportive of homeopathic route for mental illness. But I know that I, for one, have tried lots of different things to help myself feel better. Good for you for trying something new and different...and also realizing that it may not be working. I don't want to be on "drugs" the rest of my life...but I also know the difference they have made for me. And how sometimes just missing a day is huge. But I ALSO know how frustrating not being able to find a good solution is.... :-/ |
| 2011-01-31 5:20 AM in reply to: #1319576 |
Elite 2729 Puyallup, WA | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! So I had an "incident" yesterday. I was scheduled for work, but I got so depressed/irritated that I started crying and freaking out. Almost like a panic attack - just not out of breath. I think the incident was BECAUSE I was scheduled for work...which is not good. I'm going to cut back on my extra hours this week and just do what I'm scheduled...lets see how things go. :-) On the exercise side - I've gotten 3 workouts in 3 days!! |
| 2011-01-31 9:06 AM in reply to: #1319576 |
Melon Presser 52116 | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! Rough. Depressive episode down on me like a thick black velvet curtain. Still surprisingly functional. Admittedly this has probably been the 'least worst' of the dark times, which means my medication combo and lifestyle are doing what they're supposed to. But wow ... when it's been a while, I forget what it's like to get whomped. Even breathing air seems like a suffocating task sometimes! but i *am* getting out of bed, and responding to calls and invitations, and forcing myself to go, and to even do distasteful daily life things like errands, which i despise at the best of times. - won't last forever, and for me usually goes as quickly as it came - support system firmly in place and friends are hunting me down - i know just because i feel like i want to die doesn't mean i have to - good to stay involved in other people's lives (in 'real' life and on BT) I dunno. Fur kids are awesome. I confess I have been [gasp] cuddling and kissing my cats. They're good kitties and are extra snuggly when I'm down. |
| 2011-01-31 11:25 AM in reply to: #3330494 |
Pro 4528 Norwalk, Connecticut | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! TriAya - 2011-01-31 10:06 AM Rough. Depressive episode down on me like a thick black velvet curtain. Still surprisingly functional. Admittedly this has probably been the 'least worst' of the dark times, which means my medication combo and lifestyle are doing what they're supposed to. But wow ... when it's been a while, I forget what it's like to get whomped. Even breathing air seems like a suffocating task sometimes! but i *am* getting out of bed, and responding to calls and invitations, and forcing myself to go, and to even do distasteful daily life things like errands, which i despise at the best of times. - won't last forever, and for me usually goes as quickly as it came - support system firmly in place and friends are hunting me down - i know just because i feel like i want to die doesn't mean i have to - good to stay involved in other people's lives (in 'real' life and on BT) I dunno. Fur kids are awesome. I confess I have been [gasp] cuddling and kissing my cats. They're good kitties and are extra snuggly when I'm down. {{{{Melonpresses}}} Feel Better Hunny |
| 2011-02-23 10:25 PM in reply to: #1319576 |
Science Nerd 28760 Redwood City, California | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! Having issues with being on Prozac, so I'm switching to Cymbalta. Really hope that helps and relieves the symptoms. |
| 2011-02-24 9:08 AM in reply to: #3369741 |
Expert 1158 Chicagoland | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! Artemis - 2011-02-23 10:25 PM Having issues with being on Prozac, so I'm switching to Cymbalta. Really hope that helps and relieves the symptoms. Well good luck!! I hope it is not a tough transition! |
| 2011-02-24 10:12 AM in reply to: #3370217 |
Science Nerd 28760 Redwood City, California | Subject: RE: Depression and Moods- Check in! TeddieMao - 2011-02-24 10:08 AM Artemis - 2011-02-23 10:25 PM Having issues with being on Prozac, so I'm switching to Cymbalta. Really hope that helps and relieves the symptoms. Well good luck!! I hope it is not a tough transition!Hopefully not. I usually get a little nausea from the meds when starting/stopping, but hopefully this is manageable. |
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