GoFaster - 2012-08-25 6:38 PM
Having a CRISIS OF CONFIDENCE.
Rode 100km today and was planning this as my last long ride - and completely fell apart. Goal was to ride at about HIM wattage, but this was a struggle and I was a couple of watts low, but struggling to hold it. In the last 10-15km it all went south, and over the last 5km I was averaging around 150 watts. I was done, and just soft pedaling to try and make it home.
The last 4 weeks have not been good for riding. I've only been averaging 2 rides a week - life has just gotten in the way a bit, and I was a bit worried that some fitness had fallen off. But I didn't expect the meltdown I had today.
Couple of other factors that may have contributed. Walked a 5hour round of golf yesterday in the heat, so that may have impacted the legs a bit. Also screwed up nutrition badly because I forgot to buy gels. Took just 1 gel, 1 banana, and 1 granola bar during 3.5 hours + 2 bottles of water and 1 bottle of watered down gatorade (ran out of powder).
I'm not going to be able to forget about this ride, so I need some suggestions on how I can regain the confidence I had just 4 weeks ago. I've only got 2 weeks left before the HIM, and am now really concerned about what I can actually manage on the bike. I figure the last week is only for taper, which seems to only leave this week.
After this ride I really am wondering if I've kind of blown my last few months of training with how my riding has fallen off, culminating in the ride today. [/whining]