Depression and Moods- Check in! (Page 7)

mman - 2008-07-06 2:25 PM

lots of hard days ahead. the support that i receive through bt has been phenomenal. thank you!

annabananamc - 2008-07-07 12:11 PM Hey Anne - good to see you here. I am afraid that, for me, I basically had to cut back on training to find the level that kept me balanced. I used to be an ultrarunner, but since the anxiety stuff kicked in, I've scaled back to a level where the exercise helps me, instead of causing more anxiety like you mentioned. For example, I started a marathon training program, but had to scale that back once I got to the 8mile long runs. For tri's, I've had to stick mostly with sprint distance and an occasional (ok, one so far) Olympic distance race. I love to do longer stuff as I am a 'go forever slowly' kind of person, but when I have to train that much the rest of my life gets out of balance and then my emotions go haywire. Adding in some yoga and pilates has helped me too. and I'm just trying to find peace with staying at this level instead of ticking off the distances on my goal chart. SOMEDAY I will do HIM or IM (or both) but it's going to be when there are fewer other things in my life. I think that getting some extra support when you bump your training is a great idea, and come here often, too :-) Like in the 12 steps, it works if you work it! AB

runrachierun - 2008-07-15 1:19 PM Hi everyone. I am just devastated for no big reason. I feel like I can do nothing right, am all alone, and am just exhausted. Nothing ever works out and I'm going to just give up. I don't know what to do. I don't even have time to go to a doctor or figure any of that out. I think I am going to skip out on my tri I have planned this weekend and I told my fiancee that I want him to break up with me. To add insult to injury, my boss walked into my office with me BAWLING. NICE. I hate myself.

tricupcake - 2008-07-16 12:27 PM Hi everyone. I'm new to the triathlon world but not new to the depression world. Looking back on it, I think I have probably been depressed my whole life but either didn't know it or was afraid to own up to it. The last 18 months have been pretty hellish for me. I found out something about my husband that has caused me to want to get divorced. We are still living in the same house because I can't get up enough courage or strength to just throw him out. We are not in a good place financially and I think that is part of what is stopping me. We had a huge fight on July 3rd and I realized then that I don't have any fight left in me. As a result, we are going to stay together until we get more financially stable. I think that weekend was the darkest period in my life. Last year, I often had suicidal thoughts because I didn't think I had what it took to deal with my situation. July 5th was my worst day. It was very dark for me. I think the only thing that saved me was getting out of the house and going to a park. There was something about watching little kids that pulled me out of the darkness. I've been so-so since then, but still know I need professional help. I've only gone to one psychologist in the past and that turned out to be a very horrible experience. I do have a couple of questions though. What doc to you go to to get medicated? Can I go to my GP or do I need to find a psychiatrist? I was probably going to ask for my doc to put me on Wellbutrin as I am also trying to quit smoking and have heard that med is also good for that. And how do I find a quality psychologist? It seems now my best bet is putting their names up on a dart board and choosing that way. If any of you are in the Chicagoland area and have a good doc in the west/northwest suburbs, please pass their names along. I'm looking for a male psychologist as the first one I had was female and she left a bad taste in my mouth. And mman, my heart goes out to you. Most of the time I believe that God never gives you more than you can handle (except when it applies to me). You sound like a very strong man and your wife and kids are equally as amazing. My thoughts and prayers are with you and I believe that God will get you through this and send you people to support and uplift you and your family during this time.

Reno8 - 2008-08-04 11:21 AM

Just checking to see how everyone is doing.  Had a rough summer but things seem to be getting better.  I was very sad to hear about Greg's wife and my thoughts and prayers go out to him and his family.