Mad Manatee Mentors CLOSED (Poptart/pet pic bribes?) (Page 69)

Okay, I need to just vent a little, and please feel free to tell me that I just need to shut up, or whatever. 

I don't like having dogs.  I like other peoples' dogs, but I don't like having them.  And now I feel like a horrible person.  I could go into the myriad of reasons why I dislike them, but that would make me feel even worse.   

The short version is that Tony's wanted dogs forever and has always said that when we have a house with a yard, we'd get a dog.  So... when we got a place with a yard, the first thing we did was start to look for a dog and I thought "one won't be so bad", and then he convinced me that the dog would need a dog... so we got 2.  Don't get me wrong, the dogs aren't going anywhere and they will get all kinds of love and attention, but they are and will be Tony's dogs.   

I feel like I'm pretending to like them and be all happy to see them, but I'm not.  I hate myself for all of that, and mentally beat myself up for not loving them like I feel I should be.  I really thought that once we had them I'd fall in love with them and all would be peachy-keen and rainbows and unicorns, and maybe that will happen - I've got 10 years or so to find out.  

Okay, I'm just going to stop now, I wasn't sure about even writing this in the first place - but I needed to get some of the weight of misery off my shoulders.  My apologies if I've made anyone feel uncomfortable - that's not my intention at all.  

Gah, now I'm rambling which is never a good thing.  We should get back to all things that are awesome with the Manatees like keeping jobs and job prospects and healing and non-torn hip labrums and such.  

Sorry for my ramblings!  

I spent January pretty much trying new things and keeping the focus off of running (although still being consistent) and very slowly easing back into quality workouts.

I did my very first full workout last night:

WU

200 meter stride/200 meter recovery

400 meters in 82 seconds/ 400 recovery

then 4 x  mile at 6:18 with 2.5 minute recovery

It felt good to be back to a full workout and I was happy that I was able to complete it without my legs complaining after the weekends mountain summit. I'm finally to that place where the uphill travel isn't getting in the way of the forward. If that makes sense. I will start working in my second quality workout (per week) in February. 

Well, mostly good news from the PT.  During my knee PT appointment, the physical therapist spent the time assessing both my hip and my shoulder/arm.  Here are her conclusions and recommendations:

• Hip: No labral tear (HUGE sigh of relief!!!!), likely mild hamstring strain at the upper attachment point. Hamstring and adductors v. tight. Recommended rest for 10 days, gentle stretching, and heat or alternating heat/ice.
• Shoulder/upper arm: inflammation and likely small tear at one of the smaller attachment points; no problem at insertion point or with rotator cuff. She recommended rest for 10 days, gentle isometric exercises, and ice 2x/day.

She said I could get a MRI on my hip if I wanted peace of mind but I'm happy to save my money and take her word for it.  I've gone through previous assessments for labral tears so I know what that feels like; this time didn't feel the same.  Plus she's worked on my hip before and I trust her judgment.

I'm to see her again in 2 weeks.  In the meantime, I'll sit tight (or loose, as the case may be) and follow her directions.  I'm really glad to finally have some answers and a plan without having to wait 6 weeks to see a sports medicine specialist!!

I also had a good conversation with my coach last night.  It's now clear to her that my body won't tolerate an aggressive approach to training or form changes.  We agreed that going slow has to be the name of the game.  That may mean progressing more slowly than I'd like but honestly, I'd rather be chomping at the bit to do more than doing this 2 steps forward, 1 step back dance I've been doing with her so far.  I sent her a summary of what the PT said as well as some metrics about my training over the past year to give her a sense of where I started from and how I progressed. 

So things are finally looking up, plus DH got a call back today about a new job possibility.  Keeping my fingers crossed for him!! 

One of my coworkers has the Charge HR and he loves it!

I think that DC Rainmaker said that he'll have an in depth review out in the next week or so, if that helps. 

Whether the Charge versus the Charge HR?  Well, I think that probably depends on how you want to use the HR info.

Okay, I need to just vent a little, and please feel free to tell me that I just need to shut up, or whatever. 

I don't like having dogs.  I like other peoples' dogs, but I don't like having them.  And now I feel like a horrible person.  I could go into the myriad of reasons why I dislike them, but that would make me feel even worse.   

The short version is that Tony's wanted dogs forever and has always said that when we have a house with a yard, we'd get a dog.  So... when we got a place with a yard, the first thing we did was start to look for a dog and I thought "one won't be so bad", and then he convinced me that the dog would need a dog... so we got 2.  Don't get me wrong, the dogs aren't going anywhere and they will get all kinds of love and attention, but they are and will be Tony's dogs.   

I feel like I'm pretending to like them and be all happy to see them, but I'm not.  I hate myself for all of that, and mentally beat myself up for not loving them like I feel I should be.  I really thought that once we had them I'd fall in love with them and all would be peachy-keen and rainbows and unicorns, and maybe that will happen - I've got 10 years or so to find out.  

Okay, I'm just going to stop now, I wasn't sure about even writing this in the first place - but I needed to get some of the weight of misery off my shoulders.  My apologies if I've made anyone feel uncomfortable - that's not my intention at all.  

Gah, now I'm rambling which is never a good thing.  We should get back to all things that are awesome with the Manatees like keeping jobs and job prospects and healing and non-torn hip labrums and such.  

Sorry for my ramblings!  

Okay, I need to just vent a little, and please feel free to tell me that I just need to shut up, or whatever. 

I don't like having dogs.  I like other peoples' dogs, but I don't like having them.  And now I feel like a horrible person.  I could go into the myriad of reasons why I dislike them, but that would make me feel even worse.   

The short version is that Tony's wanted dogs forever and has always said that when we have a house with a yard, we'd get a dog.  So... when we got a place with a yard, the first thing we did was start to look for a dog and I thought "one won't be so bad", and then he convinced me that the dog would need a dog... so we got 2.  Don't get me wrong, the dogs aren't going anywhere and they will get all kinds of love and attention, but they are and will be Tony's dogs.   

I feel like I'm pretending to like them and be all happy to see them, but I'm not.  I hate myself for all of that, and mentally beat myself up for not loving them like I feel I should be.  I really thought that once we had them I'd fall in love with them and all would be peachy-keen and rainbows and unicorns, and maybe that will happen - I've got 10 years or so to find out.  

Okay, I'm just going to stop now, I wasn't sure about even writing this in the first place - but I needed to get some of the weight of misery off my shoulders.  My apologies if I've made anyone feel uncomfortable - that's not my intention at all.  

Gah, now I'm rambling which is never a good thing.  We should get back to all things that are awesome with the Manatees like keeping jobs and job prospects and healing and non-torn hip labrums and such.  

Sorry for my ramblings!  

Okay, I need to just vent a little, and please feel free to tell me that I just need to shut up, or whatever. 

I don't like having dogs.  I like other peoples' dogs, but I don't like having them.  And now I feel like a horrible person.  I could go into the myriad of reasons why I dislike them, but that would make me feel even worse.   

The short version is that Tony's wanted dogs forever and has always said that when we have a house with a yard, we'd get a dog.  So... when we got a place with a yard, the first thing we did was start to look for a dog and I thought "one won't be so bad", and then he convinced me that the dog would need a dog... so we got 2.  Don't get me wrong, the dogs aren't going anywhere and they will get all kinds of love and attention, but they are and will be Tony's dogs.   

I feel like I'm pretending to like them and be all happy to see them, but I'm not.  I hate myself for all of that, and mentally beat myself up for not loving them like I feel I should be.  I really thought that once we had them I'd fall in love with them and all would be peachy-keen and rainbows and unicorns, and maybe that will happen - I've got 10 years or so to find out.  

Okay, I'm just going to stop now, I wasn't sure about even writing this in the first place - but I needed to get some of the weight of misery off my shoulders.  My apologies if I've made anyone feel uncomfortable - that's not my intention at all.  

Gah, now I'm rambling which is never a good thing.  We should get back to all things that are awesome with the Manatees like keeping jobs and job prospects and healing and non-torn hip labrums and such.  

Sorry for my ramblings!  

You have had so much going on recently, I'm not surprised you are feeling that way.  Right now, they are more work than fun, on top of everything else you have to do.  As someone else said, you may never love having dogs, but hopefully in time they become part of your family for you.  In the meantime, does Tony know how you feel?  If not, I would say have a conversation with him.  Make sure you set ground rules.  My SO and I interact with the dogs very differently (they are more hers than mine; I totally love them, but they are HER dogs).  She gets them all wound up when she comes home; they know for me, they can be excited , but they better not jump all over me like they do her.  When she is home, they get totally wound and run and play.  When it is just them and I, they sleep.  They get to know our personalities just as we do theirs, AND they have to be taught how to interact with different people.  In any case, don't beat yourself up over it.

Thanks again, everybody, for all your support and encouragement while I deal with this injury shyte.  Y'all's are the bestest!!

Monica, as others have said, don't feel bad about hating the dogs.  You've barely settled in to your new space and now they're invading it and upsetting the cute little furry jerks.  You're not making Tony get rid of them and are committed to giving them a good home.  That's all you can do right now and that's okay.  I love all animals and grew up with dogs; even so, there are times when ours drive me absolutely nuts to the point that I just shut myself in the bedroom to get away from them.  It's usually when I'm stressed out or not feeling well and I just don't have the patience to deal with them.  Hang in there and insist that Tony take them to some training classes.  For the drama, insist that he buys you a spa day or 10!!

Salty, so great that your fun mountain runs have helped rejuvenate you.  With your love of the outdoors, they're clearly good for your soul (although maybe not so good for your soles ).  There's all kinds of benefits to that, including giving you more strength when it comes to your more regimented track training.  Keep up the good work!

Michael, gorgeous deer picture!  You're doing an awesome job of slow and steady training (I could obviously take some lessons from you!) as well as making sure to take in the beauty around you.  There's nothing like keeping things in balance and you're clearly on the right track.

Have a good day, everybody.  I'm busy with meetings again so I won't be around much for the rest of the day.  Have fun without me!

As someone who has had the "opportunity" to spend a lot of time in PT the past several months, I resemble this remark

http://running.competitor.com/2015/01/out-there/out-there-the-rehab-room_121912

"It’s as if our last names (and identities) have been replaced by our injuries. In a way, they have. Jenny ACL has been a runner since she was 11 years old. Tom IT Band..."

Hi, I'm Janyne Dislocated Shoulder, 18 weeks post op tomorrow...  This is Hands Rotator Cuff and over there is Mary Hips. 

As someone who has had the "opportunity" to spend a lot of time in PT the past several months, I resemble this remark

http://running.competitor.com/2015/01/out-there/out-there-the-rehab-room_121912

"It’s as if our last names (and identities) have been replaced by our injuries. In a way, they have. Jenny ACL has been a runner since she was 11 years old. Tom IT Band..."

Hi, I'm Janyne Dislocated Shoulder, 18 weeks post op tomorrow...  This is Hands Rotator Cuff and over there is Mary Hips. 

As someone who has had the "opportunity" to spend a lot of time in PT the past several months, I resemble this remark

http://running.competitor.com/2015/01/out-there/out-there-the-rehab-room_121912

"It’s as if our last names (and identities) have been replaced by our injuries. In a way, they have. Jenny ACL has been a runner since she was 11 years old. Tom IT Band..."

Hi, I'm Janyne Dislocated Shoulder, 18 weeks post op tomorrow...  This is Hands Rotator Cuff and over there is Mary Hips.